Head Full-O-Monkeys

JenJo's message from the past

2009-11-22T15:16:00.000-06:00

I was looking through a container to empty, so I had a place to store my ever expanding collection of photos. I came across something I hadn't read in 8 or 9 years. My friend Jennifer Joseph wrote this about me as a class assignment back in High School. Probably when I was a senior. It touched me more than it did when I first read it. I hope I am still a fraction of the person she thought I was.

Who is your wall?

"Friends are like walls. Sometimes you lean on them, and sometimes it's enough to know they are there. So who is your wall? My wall is a neon colored and like any non-conventional wall.He sets his standards apart from everyone else and whatever he does, he makes it work. He doesn't have that many close friends but he is a close friend to everyone that he meets...and he is Cameron...my best friend. Cameron is very tall wall. He always reaches for things I can't grasp and at least tries to make me understand or gives me a step ladder to help me on my way. Cameron possesses the wackiness we all lost when we turned 6, I guess he never got rid of it. He is the type of person who makes everything fun, even grocery shopping and riding in the car. He can be very stubborn like a wall, but he does it for a reason. He tends to point things out when I've done wrong so that I won't make the same mistake again. Cameron is also one of the only guys I know who is honest. He knows when to be serious and when to joke around and he knows how to just be him. Around him you tend to enjoy the simplicities of life, like breathing. The reason I say breathing is because you are either rolling on the floor laughing or you will be losing your breath slowly wrestling leg grabs. There is never a dull moment in the presence of Cameron, for he will always enlighten you with one of his random websites, sing, or even one of his off the wall facts. His endurance will always impress people, but as long as he still has that smile on his face when he says hello to me, I know everything is fine. Confidence and importance is what I feel around him. He makes me feel like a beautiful person and really that takes a beautiful person to do that. For I know my neon wall of a friend is not perfect, but I love his imperfections. I couldn't ask for anything more. Does your wall do that for you? If not, call 1-800-Cameron and don't worry, he'll always be there for you."

Thank you JenJo, for reminding me of the man I once was and the man I am still trying to be.

My Likes for SXSW

2009-03-08T13:24:00.005-05:00

There are some big folks, in my book, coming to town in about a week. I'm digging around the SXSW schedule and maximizing the use of my dual monitors. Below are most of the bands I've added to my SXSW calendar.

First off, One of my most anticipated,Trickey

New album out and he's coming state-side. w00t!

A former partner of his is also coming for her 2nd solo effort.
Martina Topley-Bird

Some new folks for me Kraak & Smaak

Another FavoriteLady Sovereign

Mr. Lif

Busdriver!!!

Steve Aoki aka Kid Millionaire

Bassnectar

Boys Noize

Dan Le Sac Vs Scroobius Pip

HEARTSREVOLUTION

Hot Pink DeLorean

The Toxic Avenger & Franki Chan

MSTRKRFT

N.A.S.A

Yelle

Efterklang

The Golden Filter

Ladyhawke

Dosh

The Octopus Project- always a fav

Amanda Palmer

Passion Pit

Peter Bjorn and John

...Of course there are those who I have set up as plan B bands:

Bloodgroup

Flosstradamus

the bird and the bee
Tim Heideker from Tim and Eric directed this!

Chain snake

2008-12-09T14:08:00.001-06:00

Sent from my Iphone. Please excuse arrogance.

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Rattlesnake Chainsaw Wars

2008-12-09T14:00:00.001-06:00

Loving the Rattlesnake Chainsaw war concept!

2008-12-02T20:50:00.000-06:00

Trying out some of Picasa 3's features. I love the tint feature and soft focus. I'm goin' nuts!

New iphone app: Juxtaposer

2008-11-14T16:16:00.001-06:00

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> Sent from my Iphone. Please excuse arrogance.

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Leaving for a bit

2008-10-19T17:10:00.002-05:00

Well folks, I leave for Amsterdam and London tomorrow around 4:30 and I'll be back the following Monday at 7pm. I'll miss all of you that I will miss. The others will be vaguely thought about in passing. If you want to chat with me while I'm abroad you can text me but no Calls as those are a buck a minute. I'll call you in a haze, if necessary. I'll have my notebook with me so you can reach me though e-mail, facebook, myspace, and the like. If you want to keep up with my progress here are the bit's I can offer:

My twitter: twitter.com/camkage - this will be frequently updated through the day.

Photos I take in Amsterdam: picasaweb.google.com/Camkage/Amsterdam
feed: http://picasaweb.google.com/data/feed/base/user/Camkage/albumid/5257805343558089889?alt=rss&kind=photo&hl=en_US

Photos I take in London: picasaweb.google.com/Camkage/LundDun
Feed: http://picasaweb.google.com/data/feed/base/user/Camkage/albumid/5258988439145622817?alt=rss&kind=photo&hl=en_US

Wish me luck. I'll see everyone in a week or so.

Adios

headfullomonkeys

2008-09-23T20:44:00.001-05:00

Gettin a check up

2008-09-19T12:09:00.001-05:00

I passed our last Fri nite. Now I'm getting a check up. First time in a med gown.

Sent from my Iphone. Please excuse arrogance.

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book log

2008-08-21T19:41:00.001-05:00

A fine one I should have read a while back. and so it goes.

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Dirty opportunities

2008-08-20T11:30:00.001-05:00

Given the chance, I could probably be as perverse as my dad and grandfather's reputations. Sad that I know about their kinks, but it's in my blood.

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Novelle Review

2008-08-15T22:52:00.000-05:00

If I am impressed with a movie, from now on, I will just take random pictures of my face during the viewing.

I believe these slides of my reactions to "The Machine Girl" should get you interested enough.

Watching a bizarre, shitty, gory Japanese movie about a girl who loses her arm and brings forth horribly choreographed, blood spewing vengeance.

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The Machine Girl

Watching car chases on the news...

2008-08-14T14:00:00.001-05:00

Is like watching someone play grand theft auto set on low resolution.

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Seeking

2008-08-06T18:48:00.001-05:00

Those who don't seek money or power will lose theirs to those who do.

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Lunch n' Tings

2008-07-10T13:05:00.004-05:00

Well, I emptied out my feed reader
when I began lunch, so I had to find something else to do. Cthulhu knows I should attempt actual talking to of co-workers. The sushi I bought from the cafeteria is sub-par today. The rice is out of whack. Normally I enjoy it as healthier than most items and decent quality. Mushy rice. Too much Vinegar.

Watched the Rifftrax for 6th Sense last nite. Wasn't their best one but it worked. I forgot how nice the cinematography was in that flick. The directing wasn't as hot as I recalled. Too much telegraphing. Then again, the studio might have said, "Hey, you know, could you repeat the whole movie once we realize Bruce has been dead for 90% of the movie? Ya know? Really bring it home to roost in the audiences head." I hope so. M. Night is a piss poor writer and director from what I've seen but I avoided the last 3 of his movies. I feel better for it.

I'm hosting a Bachelor Weekend on Sat and Sunday. Israel Chapa is getting married. I am still shocked that I was the first of his friends he told. I like the guy a lot and I've known him maybe 4-5 years. He sure has taken a shining to me if he has asked Carlos and I to arrange it all.

There will be sun, water, booze, boobies, more booze, (maybe some more boobies?), and mild Bad Assery! We promised his fiancee there would be no hookers. Not bad for limitations. Looking forward to it. I guess every man should have to throw a Bachelor Party once in his life. Another milestone.

Feeling a little depressed in the last week or two. The place is really starting to show it. I'm cleaning tonite to prepare for the guys coming in, so it gives me a good excuse. I'll be distracted most of the weekend with the festivities. That will help.

I've had a failure to launch on the last 2-3 girls I've asked out or set dates up with. Kinda getting to me a bit down. Hey, ya know, I guess I could be less picky but that doesn't help anyone. Patience is hard when your bed starts feeling lonely. Back to work.

Weezin the Juice!

2008-06-30T00:30:00.003-05:00

First off. I'm finishing the third Robocop movie, right now. I watched 'em all this week.

I have really enjoyed these guys. If you've talked to me lately, you know I'm on a retro kick right now. Come pretty major classics. This week was the following
RoboCop 1-3

Dragonslayer

Dungeons & Dragons (I find myself in awe of how this movie came to pass)

Mystery Men

Saw Atticus for his movie Premier. The Antidote was amusing but only due to the fact that I knew Atti. Joanna was in the movie too. Kinda funny to see her again in any form. She was calling Atticus's character a liar in the movie and I laughed out loud. What a clepto/compulsive liar.

Saw Tom Waits in Houston last Sun nite with Rickey. I did this:

This

And this

Rickey did this

Later Tom did this:

Later, I got a bug up my ass and made a stuffed animal out of socks. The first of many, I suppose. This one was practice:

Travis practiced origami successfully.

Max will be back tomorrow. It has been a lovely break having the place to myself. I'll probably find a place of my own in Dec/Jan. I realized I missed it too much.

I got to see a bunch of friends this week. Made me happy that they all can come together from time to time. We were celebrating my promotion. They're moving me up another level at Dell tomorrow. It just keeps happening.

We went to RedLine Hookah but when we walked up there was karaoke of American Pie blaring through the door and none of us had the balls to open the door and look into the horror that it could have been. We drove around 6th and 4th street for 1/2 an hour and ended up empty handed.

Rickey and I did a round of Disc Golf. His first time and my second. Good sun and nature time. I think it's a good way to spend 2 hours.

Got three of my prints framed. I fell in love with the Blade Runner poster all over again. *sigh*

Rickey helped get my notebook back on track with a clean install. I'll have fun whipping it back into shape this week.

Time for sleep. A new day and a new job await me on the 'morrow. Until next time - Keep on Truckin'

Need Input! Input!

2008-06-18T00:22:00.003-05:00

It's been a bit. I've not been busy. That's not why I haven't seen you. I haven't forgotten you. I'm still here. I send you texts inviting you to things. I buy an extra ticket to shows so you can come if you want. I plan things ahead so you can come. Where are you?

I had a birthday. I'm 27 now. It would have been anti-climactic but I wasn't expecting a climax.

I'm feeling a disconnection from people I've known for a while. Some are drawing nearer in ways I truly appreciate. I'm sensing flux.

Lease is up in Aug. Dell is offering me another promotion. Friends are moving. Some are to follow. I go out alone more often than not now-a-days. Movies, shows, carnivals. Doesn't seem to matter.

It's time for something.

So I did one thing. I smoked salvia

on my birthday. Oh sure, I had smoked it before. But I hadn't smoked this.

I was somewhere else for 20 minutes but it was only 4-5 minutes. I was having an important conversation. Then I had to leave even though I needed to stay. I was climbing out of a room that was collapsing into a latex tunnel where people were lined up to leave. Some were waiting in my coffee table. I couldn't get up as gravity was pulling me back. I finally started to realize I was in my Apt. I could see generic cartoon latex bubbles instead of real shapes. When I focused with all of my will I could pull the true forms forward out of the bubbles but they would just snap back behind their facades. I crawled over to the rug and sprawled out. I laid there and found myself realizing I needed to go back. I wasn't done with what I started during those lost 20 minutes in the "other place". After sweating it off I couldn't shake the thought that I was needed there. I still have that same feeling. So did Ivan and Travis. We all felt the urge to return to what we had been doing there.

I can't shake the feeling of being buffeted by winds of opaquely colored gravity winds surrounding my senses and making me feel like I was caught in a sand storm of comfort and illusion.

I'm no more illuminated than before flame met salvia but I am more curious about my plane of existence. These experiences are important to me and I need them to realize that I don't see everything. I don't know everything. I can't be sure I'm even functioning in the right reality. Maybe they really do need us back there.

I had hoped to have gone on a new date by now. It's been about a month since my last one, I think. Sarah was nice but not meant for anything longterm. I don't think she expected to be around long, anyway. Girl needed to shave her muff and know to give head without my condom on.
Neither one of those were breaking points. She was a little too nice without any edges.

Watched Short Circuit 2 last nite. That was farrrrr more amusing than I remembered it. Currently watching the first one. God I love dual monitors. Johnny 5 is an admirable character. This film couldn't be made again with the same spirit of robot wonder. Then again, I guess they did with Bicentennial Man.

Screw you for that weepy robot with a dripping heart/vag flick. Johnny 5 is a great character. the reason I like the second one more is they don't take the time to show him developing a personality and they stick him in a diamond heist flick! Wee doggies! At the same time, the whole robotics as the future of our military theme of the first flick was a little prophetic. Yet, DARPA probably was already past the wet dream stage on that one. The simplicity with which people use computers to do such amazingly complicated things just by typing a few lines is humbling. They use Fisher Stevens as the east Indian character Ben. You know, The Plague from Hackers. Little insulting racially. But. John Wayne did play Genghis Khan.

Surely I'm not the only one that relishes watching these grade of movies. I saw Harold and Maude

at the Paramount with Travis tonite. Caught a few more nuances. They opened with a Bugs Bunny cartoon. How astounding to see it on the big screen the way my parents and grandparents did. I do cherish these moments.

Dell is offering me a promotion. I'm kinda getting worried that one day they are going to promote me and they are going to discover I've been just getting lucky all along or that I'm not really all that great. Hey, as long as I keep doing the job right and they keep upping my pay, right?

Ok, it's late and Short Circuit is just starting to get good. This means a morning wishing I hadn't stayed up watching this. Gotta capture the Magic when it's here.

Camtron 5 is Alive!

Lack of Music More of Ubuntu

2008-03-30T19:30:00.001-05:00

I still haven't blogged about all my SXSW bands. I think it's too daunting a task. I could have last weekend but Rickey and I spent all of it changing my new XPS m1330 on to Ubuntu with XP running in Parallels. Learning Linux bases OSs is definitely like learning a new language. It will take a while but I'm already having fun with Compiz Fusion. Still have to get the Bluetooth, webcam, and media card working. It will just take time. Lot's of bugs but we're getting there. Here's hoping I don't break anything!

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Saul Williams

2008-03-13T11:31:00.002-05:00

Saw him tonite. Going to bed. Will tell you all about everything at the end of this bone tired week. Woo!
at Vice show SXSW

SXSWi '08 - What I hath learned.

2008-03-09T11:55:00.004-05:00

Behold. I return with tales of the interactivity that will be. Web 2.0 and moreness!

Let me first start out by saying I haven't been to a SXSWi before. I scored 2 free day passes for my and Cousin Smokey (aka Rickey) and we thought we would check it out today. We went over there around 3 and figured 3 hours was enough time to spend going through the kiosks, booths, and sundry. It was. Walking around the place I got an immediate feel of a current flowing through the aisles. There was a new shift in focus this year. From what I heard, last year was about the basic web 2.0 emergence. Basing all your productivity software and other programs on the web instead of hosting it on your own system. This year it was about coalating all your web sources into one portal. Your Myspace, Facebook, Twitter, Pownce,and so on. You can blog, message, and send files through one portal. Several folks offered their sites as the new way to do it all on one site. The first guys I met offering this were:

Now I like their interface and the idea is interesting. A site that will update you on flickr posts, facebook, and so forth. Problem is it isn't very interesting to look at. Handy, yes. You can post to any of the sites you've added onto the socialthing! roster and see frequent updates, but this should be up in a corner window of my screen, not a whole site. Better off as a widget for now. Granted this is still in Beta so I'll hope for a more immersive site to be developed. Still very useful for social network collator. if you want in on the beta use this invite code: the cake is a lie

The next note-able booth was:

I loved this concept and plan on using it a few times this year. Blurb is about desktop publishing, in a more literal sense. You download their free software, that has a very light footprint, and you build your book with your own pictures and text. You can do all the layout work and choose what format the book will be. You have them publish the book for you. Order one copy for yourself or 10 to give out as gifts. You can sell your book on their site for whatever cost you want and they will only take out the cost of publishing. They sell it for you and ship it too. I have a few ideas rolling around in my head already.

There was a site I already use:

I made this for the Digg Party:

I think you get that this makes awesome random slideshows to music. Pull your photos from your desktop, your flickr, picasa, whatever... and it will build it for you. You can arrange photos and tell it to feature some more prominently than others. They even give you the code to post it or will post it for you to a frined's myspace comments, Facebook, and the like. Too easy. This is a 30 second example. I plan on having a full one from my SXSW musical adventures up by the end of the week.

Another booth touted the ability to post Text, Pictures, & Video from your cellphone to the web.

Utterz

Simple to use, free as well. I don't see a downside to this service. As soon as I upgrade my phone from the Honk Kong Fooey that it is to a pic and video sending device I will use this a lot. I recommend. It's not in beta, either. Fully ready to rock and roll.

I went downstairs towards the end of the day and found:

These folks were offering a demo of their custom laser engraving. I watched for a bit and decided to get my Samsung P2 engraved. Ricky and I worked on a design while waiting in line. He talked to them about submitting new designs for their catalog. The lady behind us was pushy, antsy, insistent, and rude. All for a free offering. I almost yeled at her for being an old tit bag.
Here is the process of the etching.

And the finished Product:

These folks have only been in business for about a month or so. If you like this visit their site I linked to and ask them for a quote on some work for yourself. When my new Notebook comes in this week I will start figuring out the design. Hot stuff!

We killed some time over at Jackalope and worked on my business card design. We got the front part worked out we are waiting on me to reg a website to host me genius on.

We swung by the Gawker/io9 party but it was too crowded and we could chat with anyone. We ended up at the super secret Blogger party at Club De Ville where we got booze, gloves and stickers. As shown here.

I chatted with a gent from Clearspring, they make widgets, who's name is on a card I don't have on me right now. [Add in later]. We talked about Twitter, and what widgets were doing to change web functionality, as well as cluing him in on some functions of Google he didn't know about. Score one for me!

It was a nice spread of food and it wasn't too crowded.

We left after about 2 hours or so. Rickey had to be at work in the AM and had to get all the way back to Blanco. It was very productive and I walked away with a new purpose.

This was the main reason why I decided on buying a new laptop. I want to continue doing these web things but don't want to be a shut in. So I will be outside more but still as web 2.? as ever.

Feb 29th - March 3rd

2008-03-03T12:22:00.000-06:00

A little late but I have a major blog to follow so I gotta get this knocked out.

Started with a average day at work. What followed was brilliant show by Ghostland Observatory.

Thanks to Ultra 8201 for the pic source.

I didn't bring a camera as I thought it would be too packed to take pictures. It was for the most part. The opener was Dr. Jack. I couldn't find any info on him before or after the show. I liked what he spun. Mostly Daft Punk, Justice, MSTRKRFT, and the likes. Nothing that made my head explode into turntable ecstasy but it warmed up the crowd. SDave for the last 5-10 minutes of his set. I don't know if he was stalling for time or if he thought his droning beats were a good close to a varied and lively set. The crowd started booing. It was very much like making a pie feeding it to us and then waving a poo finger under our collective noses at the end. No bueno. No poo finger action next time Dr. Jack. He wore a Doc's mask and was set way back from the front so I fear I shall never know who this mystery man is.

In about 10 minutes or less we had Ghostland ignition. Starting with the opening track from Robotique Majestique. I already had the new cd in the back pocket. The bass was at a real sweet spot and it put the ants in my pants. I went into this show without having allowed myself a listen to any new tracks. It worked well. Heavy Heart struck me hard and set the tone. I had only seen these guys once before at ACL and now they were in complete control of their environment. A laser show that John Woo could have choreographed and smoke to make it easier to see. Every sone worked and the audience ate it up like a deeeelicious custard of musical musicality. I swear, when "The Band Marches on" started I have no idea that they were going to bust out the UT Band.

Thanks to tyculver for the vid.

I didn't need any euphoria inducing drugs to make me feel like I was in a spiritual domain. I saw lights, colors and sounds in those few moments that I can only home to duplicate through illegal complex chemical combinations that will leave me damaged in new ways. I left straight for home afterwards. Legs were tired and I didn't feel like drinking. I actually didn't drink the whole show so I didn't have to break for bodily functions or new adult drinks to slake my thirst. I had something with me to help with the show though.

Sat was bland, if I recall. So, pretend I didn't just mention it.

Sunday was spent trying to get a girl to leave my place after she didn't serve the purpose she came over for. I officially wrote her off my books after that. A little time at Jo's and then it was out to the Drafthouse Ritz for their Howard the Duck showing. Ivan and Matt were a bit let down from what they remembered it as a kid. See what you think from the finale.

I forgot how good the effects and animatronics were for 1986.

Monday was Justice! I was ready for this for a while. It was cold and windy. I was semi- prepped for this but the wind is a bastard bitch that takes no lovers. I took a camera for this one so here are a few pics for your stupid eyes that weren't there. Stupid eyes, I say!

Messy photo...but oddly pretty.

Opener was DJ Mendhi. He spun some lovely things and really got us jazzed without the actual application of Jazz music. He went a bit to House for me a few times but all and all he was on point and tossing some fun stuff down.

I had met up with Rhett from work just before Mendhi came on. We were a group of 5 or 6 and even though we got scattered when Justice came on we still stayed within proximity and regrouped mid show. All the clustering had made it easy to keep warm.

Of course, Justice hit the decks with full force like a man hitting something at full force. Much like that. They spun everything I had already heard but with enough variations that it felt right. Unlike DJ Shadow who will spin his catalog without much variation save for what he will play in what order. I love you Shadow but unless it's a special project like what you rolled through a month or so ago with Cut Chemist, I probably won't go. All 45s on 8 tables was worth it, though.

The final song closed and Justice walked off on and left the bass on. Like a couple in a hurry to catch their tropical flight leaving the iron on. We all stood there trapped by this epic bass on 10-12 Marshalls stacked. Our bodies vibrating and causing some of us to worry we may never be released from this sonic trap. I think this was on an old episode of Star Trek. After 2-3 minutes of vibrating at speeds unknown to the common man Justice strode back out to remind us who our friends were. In a way they have really highjacked Simian's "We are your friends" for their own. The audience chanted the refrain in waves until the bass and yelling made us collapse onto each other.

I recall a second encore but I was too burnt and tired to remember what it was. My body wasn't and it responded to the beats and I just rode it out.

After, Rhett and crew tried to wait for the crowd to pass by but got caught up in an exiting tide of fans. I got turned around and walked backwards for a bit until a kindly soul forcibly faced me the right way. Long walk back to the ride but I need the cool off.

Next blog is about this last weekend. Lots of goodness to share.

SXSW Bands and Others

2008-03-02T18:25:00.003-06:00

Holy Titty Jesus! I have gone all electro lately with a side helping of UK bands. Here is a list of the stuff I'm aiming myself at for SXSW. A few are mentioned that aren't on the schedule. Get over it. Tell me anything I'm missing.

Ladytron:

Scanners:

Robots in Disguise: (Those girls from the Mighty Boosh)

SXSW: Canceled

The Whip:

SXSW: http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/band/58128.html

The Duke Spirit:

SXSW: http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/band/62667.html

Crystal Castles:

SXSW: http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/band/65151.html

Boys Noize:

SXSW: http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/band/69415.html

dragonette:

SXSW: http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/band/71693.html

Joanna Newsom:

Late Of The Pier:

Pin Me Down:
No album yet. Myspace page link: http://www.myspace.com/pinmedown

Does It Offend You, Yeah?:

SXSW: http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/band/56082.html

These New Puritans:

SXSW: http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/band/70127.html

Working For a Nuclear Free City:

SXSW: http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/band/70339.html

MSTRKRFT:

SXSW: http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/band/70627.html

Z-Trip:

SXSW: http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/band/73060.html

Yael Naim:

SXSW: http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/band/72963.html

Kate Havnevik:

SXSW: http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/band/70636.html

Black Moth Super Rainbow:

SXSW: http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/band/61565.html

shir khan:

SXSW: http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/band/70074.html

Chromeo:

SXSW: http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/band/72412.html

Murs:

SXSW: http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/band/69694.html

Jesca Hoop:

SXSW: http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/band/69790.html

Freezepop:

SXSW: http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/band/63605.html

The Black Keys:

SXSW: http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/band/69240.html

Saul Williams:

SXSW: http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/band/69238.html

The Toxic Avenger:

SXSW: http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/band/71343.html

Simian Mobile Disco:

SXSW: http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/band/62665.html

Heartsrevolution:

SXSW: http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/band/71624.html

My Bad...Maybe not

2008-02-23T21:41:00.004-06:00

So I spent most of this week feeling lost in thought and spaced out. Like this:

I found out I wasn't working on the same wavelength as the person I was dating, recently. I had figured it out in my head pretty quick but I kept letting it swirl about in my head. I guess that is what spawned the notion for the trip last Sat. I got some things worked out but I wasn't settled. I got told on Tue and that confirmed my gut feeling and turned the rest of the week into Suckville pop. Me. Then on Thurs. morning on the ride to work I had a smile moment. My churning thoughts had produced a moment of happy.

Even if this does suck and you feel like you missed out on something that could have been wonderful...You have to feel this way sometimes. If you don't then you aren't living. The moments of elation and ebbing tides of sad that follow are part of a full life lived. We will all have regrets and could have beens. This was one of mine. I should enjoy the fact that I get to ride the ride instead of living in tedious flat day to day gray.

I wrote my reply back after 2 days of doing this in my head to her.

I'm glad I found this image. It is comprehensive. I felt better afterwards but it doesn't mean I have gotten her dislodged from my head. This weekend didn't fix it but it has helped so far.

This last dating scenario was a far cry from what my usual dating course looked like. Mostly e-mails instead of face to face. Slow pace with trust issues but less physical walls. I was confused and screwed up somewhere. Either way, I move forward. I was able to realize a next step for me. Being rejected by someone I like and not losing my self worth. I hadn't hung my self esteem on this one. I took some time to look at me and get some perspective on what I want right now.

So now I relax on a Sunday morning thinking back on A rockin' Friday nite and a Saturday nite cuddlefest. I'm ok. It sucks that I missed out on something I thought I really wanted but I'll never know and now I need to move on.

Cameron matures just a bit more and he ninjas his heart away for the next attack.

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Now playing: Klaxons - Gravity's Rainbow [Soulwax Remix]
via FoxyTunes

What Dreams May Come

2008-02-17T14:17:00.000-06:00

Last nite ended well. Went to sleep to defragment my head after a solid 5 hour 5 gram trip. My brain went through some good changes. Now Cameron v11.2.3! I am surprised my last blog made any sense at all. I've never tried to type coherently while tripping. Anyway, I don't really dream that often so that I 'member them. In the case of last nite it was a might bit different. It was all good things. I usually can't fly in my dreams or if I can it's only a foot or two off the ground. On top of than I can never show anyone. Last nite I was much more accomplished at it. It felt great. To focus and lift off the ground without effort and move at will.
People were chasing me but I was too nimble. I don't usually win very often in my dreams. There is usually something wrong; like I can't see well, or I can only fly a foot off the ground with no real speed, or I just can't run that fast.

Before that, something that I haven't been able to approach correctly, for a bit, was comfortable and felt normal. I was happy with how that was working. It was nice to be past the nervous part.

And to top it off, the piece that Sean G. made for me was found in my dream. Sugar Tits

She is still at large.

I did a lot of thinking on my trip, of course. I made a few decisions. Thought about myself and what way I have been allowing my self to receive input from life. Listened to a large amount of digital music and watched my cats freak out on catnip for the first time. Focused on how I connect with people. Ivan made a comment about me "having walls" so I decided to take a walk around them. I'm glad I did. I hadn't talked with myself in a while. I decided it was time to stop distracting myself with TV so much and spend some time developing my network interfacing.

I feel new and like I could pull the moon down to my level. Dreams and mushrooms. It's all in my head.

Pow! Bang Ratta tat! Boom!

2008-02-16T14:41:00.000-06:00

So my brain is popping right now. I love the feeling that tripping gives you where you feel this heightened need to connect with everything at once. Like I feel this call of mother nature and technology merging into one siren's song. Begging us to connect our collective-selves into one hot bodied consciousness. I'm doing a through brain cleansing. My inputs and outputs needed a good scrubbin'. I have had a few minor epiphanies that can't be put into words. Those are what made me realize I want to have that connection. The direct link between myself and another that allows wordless transmission of emotion. Thought. The singularity on a micro scale. I think the only hope we have of creating it is to focus on smaller connections first and then grow them. The singularity would have to be a virus, in a sense. Where it multiplies and doesn't just occur with the flick of an on switch. It has to be organic. A seamless blend of heart, mind, and information into one collective thought that carries itself forward. All of this is supposing we had a way to make this connection. The first person that invents the interface that allows a social network to know what you are feeling a the moment it is happening. That is when we make our jump. I want a plug that let's me move past social settings, polite society, and gender roles to basic thought transfer. Why can't I just have it as simple as ones and zeros. I want to be in a thought. Just a pure thought form. Intangible. I want to post this and at the same time know that everything already knows it.

Houston Weddin' Weekend what licked me to death!

2008-02-04T21:20:00.001-06:00

So I went to Houston this last weekend for my step-sis' wedding. Brie Booth to Chris Roy. Went over on Sat. Showed up in time for a shower got dressed for the rehersal dinner. It was at

Which had a piggy theme. Lot's of figures that looked like this:
...and they were all just as gay. I didn't get a good shot of the triple set of breasts on the one statue. I think my camera refused to take the picture. I met Chris's side of the family and mingled. A lovely set of hats were given to Brie n' Chris for the Jamaican Honeymoon. and Charlie couldn't resist. I think it worked better than he knew. Saw a kid playing an old PC game called Worms 2

That nite It was back to Brie n' Chris's for a few bowls and some puppy time. They liked my ears. Yay for puppies.

Ok. So that nite I went to sleep at about 11 and woke up at 3am. I laid there for about 30 minutes listening to music and staring at the wall.
Then I got up and walked around. Listened to a Ricky Gervais podcast.

Then I got really bored.

Like really bored.

Yes, I got this bored.

I went back to bed early when the sun was coming up. I went out to the car to get flowers loaded up and spotted this store across the street and refuse to read it any other way. ASS Cleaners! Agree with ME!

The wedding was magical and seeing young people get married and watching the love in their eyes.

I knew that when I made that decision myself it would be life changing. This wedding seemed closer to home than others I have been to.

I realized that I wanted to make "sweet" love with the chocolate fountain.

I wanted to be balls deep in that chocolate flowing love. It was meant to be. I don't have a picture of me doing it because I couldn't figure out the timer in my lustful eagerness.

Afterwards, Mama and I reflected on the mess I created and looked on as the janitorial staff hosed down the area.

We looked good and I hadn't gotten a drop of chocolate on my jacket. Say what you will about me raping chocolate fountains at wedding receptions, at least I look classy after.

I caught the garter twice. Once it was passed to me by an sneaky bastard looking to pass off the wedding sentence. The second time it went straight into my had when I held it there.

Mama helped me prune my beard back to normal after a random growth appeared.

Drove home Mon. morning with little fanfare and a small hangover. Worked 1/2 assed and left when the bell rang. Fun weekend. Did some dancing saw some people who loved each other take the dive. Reflected on my me-ness. It was nice. Except that it was in Fucking Houston! Don't ever do that to me again. Sorry Ivan but Houston can suck my balls till their apple red.

Ch-ch-cherry

2008-01-31T07:33:00.000-06:00

I'm slowly getting pulled onto the intertubes. I'm spending more time than I used to. At some point I will be encapsulated by teh internets.

More later.

2008-01-29T21:32:00.001-06:00

I have to admit. This picture is truth.

I get inspired by pictures like this.

Maybe there is a woman out there for me. Who's down with how I am. And the fact that I can't leave my suit or I'll die. Someone who accepts my horrible fishy lungs.

Next week is no Procrastination week. Where I hold myself hostage to my brilliant plan not to put anything off for a week. I need it this next week too.

I have been saying "Reality is perception" a lot lately. I need to start thinking it more than saying it. Thinking you're free when it is simply the illusion of freedom.

I think about perception more and more. Time for some mushrooms, again, I guess.

I'm just glad I found someone that won't leave me feeling like this

When I get nerdy.
Thank heavens for nerdy girls! God I love 'em.

You grew up so cute.

Very Nice weekend

2008-01-28T07:39:00.000-06:00

So, nice weekend. Anybody else? Got trashed on Friday nite. Recovered and slept on Sat watch a rifftrax of "Reign of Fire" with Matthew McConoughey and Christian Bale. Bunch-o-dragons. Had a weird nite of too much sleep woke up at five a.m. So I lit a bowl and listened to Bat For Lashes, for the 3 time in 24 hours, and surfed for a while. Went to bed at 7 when the sun was coming up. Felt good.

Finally woke up. Noticed I had both cats on my bed and I knew it would be a good day. That's a good omen round these parts. I dazed around the house for a few hours. Realized I was meeting a ravishing young lady for tea around 3 and got my butt in gear. Sat from 3-8 talking about how horrible the world was and how we try to stay happy while overly informed. Talked about sci-fi, heart break, and robot bodies. One of those moments where you wonder how much more you have in common. Very natural to talk to. If it hadn't been for a hungry and getting cold I could have sat there all nite. Been a long time since that kind of comfortable conversationalist came to my town. I'll keep my eye on this one.

So, I leave this evening having watched Blackula for the first time and realized that he was also the King of Cartoons from Pee Wee's Playhouse. See:

"However, In 1987 Marshall, at the prompting of his grandchildren, took the part of the second King of Cartoons on "Pee Wee's Playhouse." The King of Cartoons was an odd entity on the show. Each week he would be introduced by the cab driver and William Marshal would stumble through the door in a crown and blue velvet blazer with a film projector in tow, and in his big baritone voice he would elegantly boom "LET THE CARTOONS.........BEGIN!" Then a minute and a half of an old bizarre cartoon would be shown, and that was the end of the segment. It never really made a ton of sense, but it sealed Marshall in the hearts and memories of a third generation of television viewers. " Bizzare, I know.

What would I choose to summarize my feelings after this weekend? Gordon Shumway, take it away!

Puppy Punishment

2008-01-26T19:36:00.000-06:00

So, for most of Friday, my steering wheel was making a strange noise when I was turning. It was the rubber lining making the sound and not some internal mechanical issue. I'm not talking about a strange as in unfamiliar. Oh no. I knew that sound. It sounded like a puppy being hurt when I turned and alternately sad when the wheel came back to poistion. Can you imagin how sad it is to drive hearing that. I felt like I was torturing a puppy everytime I manuvered my vehicle. It wrenched at the heart. The noise isn't there today.

I had a dream last nite that I was fighting demons and playing putt putt. I wasn't using my club to fight them. Nope. I had a katana that was all cyber-punk and spikey. I was doing pretty good at both Putt-Putt and slaying the evil dark forces. It's a nice change. I'm usually ineffective against creatures in my dreams. I must have leveled up in the dream world.

Oh, yeah, um...I have eye beams now. They are kinda deadly.

More music in my Vaginal Ear

2008-01-09T19:34:00.000-06:00

A little summary. You may only like one or two but you'll thank me for it.

No summaries. Too many and I don't wanna take the time. Sorry if your intehnet speed is too slow, ass monkey.

Andrew Bird - "Imitosis"

Apparat - You Don't Know Me

black strobe - Me and Madonna

Blonde Redhead - Top Ranking

Boys Noize - & Down

Charlotte Gainsbourg - The Songs That We Sing

Chromeo - Fancy Footwork

ellen allien and apparat - bubbles

Grizzly Bear - Knife

Guillemots - Trains To Brazil

INGRID MICHAELSON - The Way I Am

Lindstrom - The Contemporary Fix

Modeselektor - Dancing Box

moving units - between us and them

The National - Mistaken For Strangers

New Young Pony Club - Tight Fit

The Presets - Are You The One

Sia - Buttons (ut really, only this song)

Stars Of The Lid - An Autumn Sky

Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Rich (no one told me, sorry)

A Fine Frenzy - Almost Lover (i have a vagina)

girl talk - friday night

Hot Chip - Over and Over

Ms John Soda - Hiding/Fading

Stars - Take Me To The Riot

n case you wanted the Movie list I slaved over

2008-01-09T19:32:00.002-06:00

It's not done yet. It's never done!

Cameron's Film List

This is a collection of titles I have seen that have provided me with some awesome cinematic highs and lows. Just like food, you won't have the same cinematic taste buds as I do. You'll see a lot you remember but it's the others that are important. There are about three hundred recommendations and the list is updated every month or so. If you have any questions on a film, don't hesitate to ask me. Enjoy, and feel free to make recommendations for the list anytime. Coming at some point: Film database with reviews. Small update 2/28/08

Legend:

Comedy [C] Awful-ly Good [AG]

Horror [H] Sci-Fi [SF]

Kung Fu [KF] What The [?]

Samurai [S] British [Brt]

B-Movie [B-] Romance [R]

Action [A] Anime [Anm]

Documentary [Doc] Fantasy [F]

Mystery [M] Youth [Y]

Drama [D] Musical [Mus]

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18 Bronze Men of Shaolin [KF]
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2LDK [A/D]
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21 Grams [D]
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28 Days Later [H/A]
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2002 (Hong Kong) [SF/D/KF]
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Adaptation [M/?]
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The Adventures of Baron Munchausen [F/C] - dir. Gilliam
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The Adventures of Pipi Longstockings [C/F/Y]
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The Adventures of Buckaroo Banzai Across the 8th Dimension [?/SF/C/A]
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Aeon Flux [Anm/A/?/M]
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Airplane [C]
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Akira [Anm/A/SF]
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Aliens [SF/A]
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Alien 3 [SF/A]
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Alien v Predator: Requiem [A]
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Alive (Jpn) [A/KF/S]
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American Beauty [D]
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Amilie [R/D] - dir. Junet
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Anchorman [C]
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Army of Darkness [C/A/H]
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Austin Powers in Goldmember [C]
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Avenging Fist [KF/SF]
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Azumi [S]
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Babe: Pig in the City [D/Y/?]
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Bad Boys 2 [A/C]
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Baraka [Doc]
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Baseketball [C]
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Batman [A]
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Battle Beyond the Stars [SF/B-]
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Battle Creek Brawl [KF] J. Chan
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Battle Royale 1 & 2 [A/D] B. Takashi
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Bedazzled (1967) [C/Brt]
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Being John Malkovich [?/C/D]
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The Ben Stiller Show (Series) [C]
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Berserk- series [Anm/A/H]
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A Better Tomorrow 2 [A] - dir. J. Woo
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The Big Lebowski [C]
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Big Meat Eater [B-/AG/H/C/Mus]
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Blacula [H/AG]
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The Blade (HK) [KF]
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Blade 2 [A/H]
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Blade Runner [SF/A]
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Blades of Glory [C]
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Blazing Saddles [C]
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Blood Diner [H/AG/C/B-]
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The Blue Planet – series [Doc]
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Blue Velvet [?/M] - dir. Lynch
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Boogiepop Phantom- series [D/M/?/Anm]
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Boogie Nights [D]
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Boondock Saints [A]
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Bride of the Re-Animator [H/AG]
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Brother, Where Art Thou? [C]
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The Buddhist Fist [KF/C]
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Cabin Boy [C]
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Castle of Cagliostro [Anm/A/C] - dir. Miyazaki
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The Cat Returns [Anm/F]
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Cemetery Man [H/C]
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Child's Play 1 – 3 [H/AG]
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Chinese Super Ninja [KF]
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Chocolate [D/R]
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Chopping Mall [B-/H]
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Circle of Iron [KF/AG]
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City Hunter [KF/C] - J. Chan
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City of the Lost Children [F/?] - dir. Junet
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Clerks: The Animated Series [C]
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Clifford [C]
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Colorful -series [Anm/C/?]
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The Complete Al [C]
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Confessions of a Dangerous Mind [C/D]
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Confidence [M]
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Cool As Ice [AG]
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Cutey Honey – Live Action [A]
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Damage [R/D]
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Dance of the Drunken Mantis [KF]
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Danger: Diabolik [B-/A]
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The Darjeeling Limited [D/C]
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The Dark Crystal [Y/F]
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Day of the Beast [H/C/?]
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Dead Alive (Brain Dead) [H/C]
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Dead Man On Campus [C]
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Dead Mean Don't Wear Plaid [C]
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Dead Or Alive 1 & 2 [?/A] dir. T. Mikke
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Dead Poets Society [D]
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Death Race 2000 [AG/B-/A]
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Deep Throat [?/XXX/C]
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Delicatessen [?/R] - dir. Junet
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Demon Knight [H/C]
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Demons1 & 2 [H]
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The Descent [H]
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Destroy All Monsters [A/AG]
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Dirty Ho [KF/C]
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Dirty Tiger, Crazy Frog [KF/C]
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The (Avenging) Disco Godfather [B-/AG] R. R. Moore
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Dog Soldiers [H/Brt]
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Dogeball: A True Underdog Story [C]
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Dolemite [AG/B-] R. R. Moore
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Doom Generation [?]
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Dr. Callgari [F/?]
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Dreadnaught [KF]
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Drop Dead Gorgeous [C]
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Drunken Master [KF] J. Chan
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Duck Soup [C/Mus]
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Duel to the Death [KF/S]
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Dumb and Dumber [C]
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Dumb and Dumberer [C]
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Dune [SF/D] - dir. Lynch
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Ed and His Dead Mother [C]
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Edward Scissorhands [F/R/D]
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The Emperor and The Assassin [KF/D]
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Emperor's New Groove [Y/C]
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Ernest Goes to Camp [C/Y]
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Escaflowne – The Movie [Anm/]
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Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind [R/?]
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Even Dwarfs Started Small [?/AG]
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Everything You Wanted to Know About Sex but were afraid to ask [C] W. Allen
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Evil Dead 2: Dead By Dawn [H/B-]
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Evil Toons [H/C/B-]
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Fahrenheit 9/11 [Doc]
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The Fairly Odd Parents: Abra Catastrophe [Y/C]
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Fantastic 4: Unreleased Movie [AG/B-/A]
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Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas [C/?]
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Fear of A Black Hat [C/Mus]
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Fight Back to School 1- 3 [C] - S. Chow
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Fight Club [A/D]
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Fishing With John [C/Doc]
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The Five Deadly Venoms [KF]
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Flash Gordon [SF/F/A]
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FLCL- series [C/Anm/?]
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Flesh Gordon [AG/B-/R/SF/F]
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Flesh Gordon 2: Flesh Gordon Meets the Cosmic Cheerleaders [AG/B-/R/SF/F]
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Flight of the Navigator [SF/Y]
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Forbidden Zone [???????/Mus]
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Four Rooms [A/D/C]
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Freaked [C]
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Freddy VS. Jason [H/A]
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Friday the 13th 3 – 10 [H]
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Fright Night 1 & 2 [H]
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The Game [M/A]
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Gangster No. 1 [Brt/A]
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Garden State [D/R]
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Get Carter [A/D] M. Cain
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Get Crazy [C/?]
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Getting Any? [C/S] dir. K. Takashi
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Ghost in the Shell 1 & 2 [Anm/A]
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God of Cookery [C/KF] S. Chow
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God of Gamblers 2 [C] S. Chow
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God Told Me To [H/M/B-]
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Godzilla: Final Wars [SF/A]
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Goonies [A/Y/C]
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The Green Slime [SF/B-/AG]
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Guest House Paradiso [Brt/A/C]
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Guns on the Cakalacas [C]
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Hard Boiled [A] dir. Woo
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Harold And Kumar GO to White Castle [C]
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Harold and Maude [R/D]
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Hellraiser 2 & 3 [H]
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Hero ('03) [KF/D] J. Li
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Hidden Fortress [S/D] dir. Kurosawa
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High Tension [H]
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Hilary and Jackie [Mus/D]
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Hot Fuzz [A/C/Brt]
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Hot Rod [C]
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Hot Shots: 1 & 2 [C/A]
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House [H/AG]
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House II [H/B-]
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House Party [AG/C]
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House of 1000 Corpses [H/?]
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The House of Yes [D/?]
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Human Nature [C]
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Human Tornado [A/AG]
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Ice Pirates [A/AG]
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Ichi the Killer [A/?] dir. T. Mikke
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Idle Hands [H/C]
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If Looks Could Kill [A/C]
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Igby Goes Down [C]
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I Heart Huckabees [C/D]
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Ikiru [D] dir. Kurosawa
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Indahouse - Ali G. [C]
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Indiana Jones: The Last Crusade [A]
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Indiana Jones: Raiders of the Ark [A]
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In the Mouth of Madness [H]
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Invincible Shaolin [KF]
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Iron Giant [Y/SF]
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Iron Monkey [KF]
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The Italian Job (1969) [A/Brt] - M. Caine
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Jack Frost 2: Revenge of the Mutant Killer Snowman [H/C/AG]
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Jason and the Argonauts [F/A]
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The Jerk [C/R]
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Jaws 3 [A/AG]
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Karate Kid 2 [KF/AG]
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Kentucky Fried Movie [C]
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Kids In The Hall: Brain Candy [C]
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Kill Bill 1 & 2 [A/S/KF]
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The Killer [A] - Dir. Woo
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King of New York [D/A] - C. Walken
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Kiss Me Deadly [M]
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Kiss Meets the Phantom of The Park [?/A/M/AG]
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Knockabout [C/KF] Dir. S. Hung
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Krull [F/A/Y]
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Krush Groove [C/Mus/AG]
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Kung Pow: Enter the Fist [C/KF]
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Labyrinth [F/Y]
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The Ladies Man [C]
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Lady Snowblood [S]
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Last Exile – series [Anm/A/D]
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The Last Star Fighter [SF]
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Lawyer Lawyer [C] - S. Chow
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Layer Cake [Brt/A]
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Legend [F/A]
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Legend of the Drunken Master (Drunken Master 2) [KF] – J. Chan
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The Legend of Zu [KF/F]
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The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou [C/D]
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A Life Less Ordinary [R/C]
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The Life of Mammals - series [Doc]
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Lilo and Stitch [Y/C]
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Little Shop of Horrors -(1986) [C/H/Mus]
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Lobster Man From Mars [C/B-]
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Logan’s Run [SF]
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The Lonely Guy [C/R]
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Lone Wolf and Cub: Sword of Vengence [S]
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Lone Wolf and Cub: Babycart Over the River Styx [S]
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Lone Wolf and Cub: Babycart In Peril [S]
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Lone Wolf and Cub: Babycart To Hades [S]
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Lone Wolf and Cub: In The Land of Demons [S]
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Lone Wolf and Cub: White Heaven In Hell [S]
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Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers [F/A]
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The Lost Boys [H]
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Love and Death [C] - W. Allen
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Mad max 1 – 3 [A]
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Mad Mission 1-4 [B-/A/KF]
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Mad Monkey Kung Fu [KF/C]
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Magnificent Butcher [C/KF] - S. Hung
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Magnolia [D]
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Mallrats [C]
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The Man With Two Brains [C]
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Martin & Orloff [C]
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Master of the Flying Guillotine [KF] – Wang Yu
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Matchstick Men [D/M]
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May [H/C/R]
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Mechanical Violator Hakaider [F/KF]
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Meet the Feebles [C/?/Mus]
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Melvin Goes To Dinner [C/D]
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Memento [M/D]
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A Mighty Wind [C]
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Mirrormask [F/Y]
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Mr. Vampire Collection [KF/C/H]
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Monkey Hustle [B-/AG] R. R. Moore
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Monster Squad [F/H/Y]
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Monty Python's The Life of Brian [C/Brt]
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Monty Python and the Search for Holy Grail [C/Brt]
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Moon Over Tao [KF/F]
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MoonTrap [AG/SF]
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Moulin Rouge [R/Mus]
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Mullholand Dr. [?/M/] - dir. Lynch
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Muppet Treasure Island [Y/C/Mus]
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Musa The Warrior [A/D]
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My Boyfriends Back [C/B-]
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Mystery Men [C/A]
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Mystery Science Theater 3000 - series [C]
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Mystery Science Theater 3000: The Movie [C/SF]
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Naked Gun 1-3 [C]
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Napoleon Dynamite [C/AG]
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National Lampoon's Loaded Weapon 1 [C/A]
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National Lampoon's Vacation [C]
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National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation [C]
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Natural Born Killers [A/D/?]
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Nausica and The Valley of The Wind [Anm/F]
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Neon Genesis Evangalion- series [Anm/A/SF/D]
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The Neverending Story [Y/F]
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Night Breed [H]
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A Night At The Opera [C]
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Ninja Scroll [Anm/S]
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Now and Then, Here and There- series [Anm/D/F]
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Octapussy [A]
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Odd Couple [HK/KF/C]
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Old Boy [D] Dir. Chan Wook Park
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One From The Heart [Mus/R/Flm]
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One Missed Call [H]
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Ong Bak I & II [KF]
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Operation Condor 2: Armour of the Gods [KF/C] - J. Chan
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Ordinary Decent Criminal [C/M]
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Orgazmo [C]
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Les Pact Des Lupes (Brotherhood of the Wolf) [KF/F/D]
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Paranoia Agent – series [Anm/?/M]
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PCU [C]
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Pedicab Driver [KF] S. Hung
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Pee Wee's Big Adventure [C/Y]
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The People Under The Stairs [H/AG]
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Petey Wheetstraw: The Devil's Son In Law [AG/B-] R. R. Moore
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Phantasm 1-3 [H/A]
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Planes, Trains, and Automobiles [C]
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Playing By Heart [R/C]
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Poolhall Junkies [D/C] - C. Walken
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Princess Mononoke [Anm/A/F]
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Project A [KF/C] - J. Chan
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Punch Drunk Love [R/D]
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Purple Rain [Mus/AG]
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Putney Swope [?]
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Queens Logic [D/C]
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Quills [R/D]
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Radioland Murders [C/M]
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Ran [S/D] - dir. A. Kurosawa
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Real Genius [C]
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Reefer Madness ('05) [Mus/C]
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Remo Williams: The Adventure Begins [A/AG]
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Replacement Killers [A]
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Return Of The Five Deadly Venoms [KF]
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Return to Oz [F/Y]
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Rize [Doc]
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Robocop 1 & 2 [SF/A]
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Rocky Horror Picture Show [C/?/Mus]
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Roger Doger [D/C]
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Romeo Is Bleeding [D]
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Ronin Gai [S]
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Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead [C/D]
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The Royal Tenenbaums [D/C]
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Royal Tramp [C/KF] S. Chow
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The Rules Of Attraction [D/?/C]
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Run Lola Run [Flm/A/D]
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The Running Man [A/SF]
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Run Ronnie Run [C]
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Sakuya- The Slayer of Demons [A/F/S]
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Samurai I-III: Musashi Myamoto [D/S]
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The Sandlot [C/Y]
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Schizopolis [?]
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Secretary [R/?]
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Scratch [Mus]
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Scrooged [C]
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The Secret Adventures of Tom Thumb [?]
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See No Evil, Hear No Evil [C]
Series 7 [D/A]
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Seven Samurai [S/D] dir. Kurosawa
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Sex and Zen [C/KF/R]
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Sexy Beast [M/D]
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Shakes the Clown [C]
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Shaolin Master Killer [KF]
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Shaolin Soccer [C/KF] - S. Chow
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The Shaolin Temple [KF]
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Silver Streak [C]
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Sin City [A]
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Six String Samurai [F/?/S/Mus]
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Skinny Tiger, Fatty Dragon [C/KF] - S. Hung
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Snake In The Eagle's Shadow [KF] J. Chan
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Snatch [A/C]
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Solarbabies [SF/B-]
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South Park: Bigger, Longer, and Uncut [C/Mus]
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Spaceballs [C]
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Spellbound [Doc/C]
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This is Spinal Tap [C/Mus]
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Spirited Away [Anm/F/Y]
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Spooky Encounters [KF/C/H] S. Hung
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Spriggan [Anm/A]
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Spun [C/D]
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Stacy [H/?]
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Stafano Quantestorie [C/R/?]
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The Story of Ricky O! [KF/AG/?]
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Star Wars Trilogy 4-6 [SF/F]
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Stranger Than Fiction [D/C]
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Stir Crazy [C]
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Strings [D/?]
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Student Bodies [C]
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The Stuff [H/AG]
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Subspecies 1-4 [H/B-]
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Talladega Nights [C]
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Suicide Kings [C/M] - C. Walken
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Super Size Me [Doc]
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Surf Ninjas [C/A]
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Sympathy For Mr. Vengeance [D] dir. Chang Wook Park
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The Sweetest Thing [C/R/?]
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Take the Money and Run [C] - W. Allen
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Tank Girl [C/SF/A]
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Tao of Steve [C/R]
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Team America World Police [C/?]
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Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles 2: Secret of the Ooze [A/Y/C]
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Terror Comes to Tiny Town [?/AG]
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Texas Chainsaw Massacre 2 [H/AG]
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They Live [A/SF/B-]
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Three Amigos [C]
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Three Kings [A/C]
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Throne of Blood [S/D] dir. Kurosawa
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Titus [D]
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Tompopo [Flm/?]
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Top Secret! [C]
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The Toy [C]
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Toys [C/F/Y]
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Tricky Brains [C] S. Chow
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True Romance [A/D]
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True Stories [C/?/Mus]
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Tuvalu [R/?]
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TV Carnage (Series) [?/C/AG]
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UHF [C/Mus]
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Under The Cherry Moon [Mus/C/D/AG]
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Usual Suspects [A/M]
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Vampire Hunter D: Blood Lust [Anm/H/A]
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Velvet Goldmine [Mus/D/Brt]
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Versus [S/H/A]
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The Victim [KF] S. Hung
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Videodrome [H/?]
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Volcano High School [KF/M/Flm]
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Waiting for Guffman [C/Mus]
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The Warriors [A]
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Wasabi [A]
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Wave Twisters [Mus/SF]
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Wet Hot American Summer [C]
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Where The Buffalo Roam [?/C]
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Wild At Heart [?/D] dir. D. Lynch
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The Wild Bunch [A/D]
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Willy Wonka and The Chocolate Factory [F/Y/Mus]
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Winged Migration [Doc]
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The Wiz [AG/F/Mus]
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Wonderful Days [Anm/F]
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Xanadu [AG/Mus]
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Yakuza Horror Theater Gozu [?/C/H] - Dir. T. Mikke
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Young Frankenstein [C/Mus]
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The Young Master [KF/C] J. Chan
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Zatoichi '03 [S/Flm/D/?] dir. K. Takashi
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Zoolander [C]
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Zu: Warriors from the Magic Mountain [KF/B-]

What I’ve been listening to...

2007-11-15T19:31:00.000-06:00

So if anyone cares. Here is a selection of what Max and I have found that cums in our ear pussies!

First, we have The Octopus Project: I saw them last nite and will see them everytime from now on. They are Local!

Then there was the opener, Cue: No videos but here is their site with 4 tracks on it.
http://www.cueaustin.com/mp3s.htm
Then there is Sarah Blasko: Softer Smokey voice with a pop appeal.

Then there is a real cutie, Meiko: How do you not find her adorable and enchanting?

Next, Beirut: This is a guy backed by a various accordions, oboes, ukalales, and sundry. Left high school in Santa Fe with Max and moved to Europe to live with gypsies. Cool kid, I say.

Another instramental band, Battles: an collective of progressive jazz/rock instramentalists. The vocals are odd ans fun.

I don't know much about, Dntel: Abstract noises for beats with guest vocalists.

More female stuff for me to be a vagina about, Feist: Apparently I should have already known about her. Thanks a lot guys.

A little electro/Bass fun with, Justice: warm base and well conceived beats.

Softly it rocks you to sleep, Kwoon: Nice voice and the whole album pulls you along a dreamscape of cloudy love. Nice for the quite sessions.

Love me or Hate me it's, Lady Sovereign: Poppy Hip-Hop done by a short cockney white chic. Too much fun:

I think he uses Fruit Loops, Mojib. Mixing up some crazy songs together.

Crazy soft hearted Icelanders, Mum: They have quirky playful songs that make me smile.

All girls and pleanty of strings, Rasputina: They aren't new but worth mentioning as I just got a lot of new stuff in on them.

Closer to the end is another british lovely, Kate Nash: fun with a little pop but some good production.

Instrumental funk oddety, Black Moth Super Rainbow: Fun and a cute sound board operator.

Old school favorite of mone, Aesop Rock: new album and Jeremy Fish helps with the video!

That's all for now. I'll throw more in later.

Assassassassin!

2007-06-26T19:22:00.000-05:00

So. There is a new assassin in my midst. He is stealthy, brutal, and attacks at 5am. He goes by the name Brack Rightening. His real name is Bucky. Adorable? Yes. Misunderstood? No. Sweet when it suits his agenda? Always. I love this new guy and he is giving Jinx a hell of a time. So, if you haven't met this little bastard yet, let me know. He will woo you and then take you down. Ladies and Gentlebeasts...
Bucky!

2 things

2006-09-17T19:37:00.000-05:00

Two things that I'm missing right now. Granted, these are not the only things I'm missing but these are what came to mind and I felt like publisizing, dammit!

First, the scent of a woman in a very non-Al Pachino type sence. I'm missing the soft scent of a woman as I hold her to me when I fall asleep. Very much so. I broke up with a girl once partially because I hated her perfume and she liked to pile it on before we met. Sorry, Stephanie, but it's true. You were also a bad lay, but honestly that was the last straw not part of the initial load.

Second thing I'm missing is a blowjob. Don't get me wrong, I don't mean any ol' blowjob. I have made the statement before that I would rather have no blowjob than a bad blowjob and I still stand by my words. I mean a decent to great blowjob. Yes, there is a difference ladies. If you close your eyes make a sour face and bob your head on the end of my penis you are not giving me a blowjob. What you are giving me is frustration. If you don't want to do it. Don't. I may have gone down on you for the last 20 minutes and if that doesn't em-passion you to want to please me back then please don't. I will warn you that if you don't you won't be a long lived lover of mine, though. I want all of you in the bed not a partial giving or a duty to be fullfiled.

While I'm on the subject. Ladies, I do not have sex very frequently now a days, which is my own problem, but when and if I ever have sex again, please last more than 45 minutes. The last few sexual experiences I've had last that long max and I'm left hanging. Honestly, let's try to perpetuate the myth that men come before women. I don't have sex often please make it worth it. Maybe that's why I don't have sex more often. Is it because I know it only lasts for a nite or two and you women can't keep up? 60% of my partners just haven't known what they're doing. Ladies, let's pick up the pace and show your worth the effort.

Yeah, that was more than two things but you read this far now didn't you?

Cammie

can't sleep, things swirl, the start of Tyler(?)

2006-09-11T04:15:00.000-05:00

So, I tried to lay down just down just now but no dice. Can't sleep. Which isn't surprising. Lately 4 out of 7 nites I have to put myself down to go to bed. Too much energy. I can't believe I have this sort of issue. I was trying to sleep just now. Things started swirling. I started thinking about Ashley, the last woman to share my bed, and how I ran into her just before a blind date recently. She and I connected for about a week and then I got a brush off. Regardless of the reasons why the main reason is I liked her and when I like 'em they vanish. I was walking out of Dell on Friday and I smelled a scent that was pure Michelle, back when we first started living together. That was so bittersweet. I really miss connecting with someone on a different level that involves intimacy. Granted, I love sex and seem to do rather well at it, but I'm talking about the afterglow. The everything that comes with it. Waking up in bed together, someone who gives you random hugs, grabs my ass in public, argues with me when I'm wrong, makes me want to improve myself to look better in their eyes. It always seems to follow with pain when I find it but at some point it won't and that's where I stop. To quote Fiona Apple on this one, "This is not about love. Cause I am not in love. As a matter of fact I can't keep from falling out. I miss that stupid ache." I love intimacy but shy from the initial stages due to fear of rejection. I wish I was more confident but most of my friends will attest that I am far better than when they first met me. I'm a late bloomer, like my pal Charlie says. I keep thinking about Ashley and how much we clicked and how sweet things seemed for that week. I want that back but I fall flat on my face every direction I turn. I get propositioned by those I'm uninterested in. I say I want to get "Laid" but I don't want a one nite thing. I'm looking for a steady that can make me feel that stupid ache, again. I'm getting ready to make some big bucks a Dell, I'm getting a new car, I love my Apt, but in the end the only thing that really makes me feel whole is that human connection. Because I'm co-dependant at heart and nothing will ever change that about me. I can camouflage it with anime, movies, graphic novels, alcohol, and weed. But... in the end I still just want someone to hold me and tell me I'm worth it. Sad or not. That is what is sitting at the bottom of Cameron, folks. Happy, bitter, excited, pensive, argumentative...It all boils down to : Cameron is waiting for someone. and waiting . . .

Plugged in again.

2006-06-26T19:17:00.000-05:00

So. I'm live and online again. I didn't think it would change my behavior that much but ther shiny newness is dazzeling my eyes. I haven't had my own computer or internet connection in about 2 years. So I have lost touch with about everuything on the net. Like; what people use to download things, what chat programs are being used, who's hot or not, and all of my profiles are pretty out of date. I'm tring to start getting outside and around town lake again. I won a computer and an Mp3 player form Dell. Can't say they never did me right working for them. I'd like to go check out some shows again down town and inject a bit of spontinaety[sp] back into my life. Some one drag me out side from time to time please. Too many series, books, comics, and movies to consume and I want them all at once. I still want to go drunken' Putt-Putting soon.

Whisky and Only Me

2005-04-15T16:29:00.000-05:00

I am finding that alot of my friends are alot more elusive than they used to be. Finished a whole bottle of whisky by myself this week. No one to drink it with. Had one date this week that bombed. She made me order the food at Casino and go pick it up at the window without offering to help. Sorry princess, I don't play that way. She then proceeded to cross herself and say a brief prayer before she ate. Houston we have a disaster. We chatted for about 4 hours and I didn't lose interest, but I think that might be because I never had alot to begin with. She was a bigger girl than I was prepared for. I won the burger duel! Casino reigns supreme! I really miss that female presence in my life and as my boy Ivan says, "You need to get laid boy. You'll feel beter after that." I love ya Ivan but it ain't as easy for me. I am also enjoying those moments where I do everything I please without fear of judgement in my own apt. I am developing myself more and more and defining more of who I am. At the same time I wonder if not having someone really close to me might be keeping me from opening my mind to new things. I think Sean Connery said it best in 'Playing By Heart'. "I needed to be reminded of why you loved me. In a sense, I needed to fall in love with myself again, so that I could love you more." I'm just starting to feel isolated and like a secondary though fro most of my friends. Hey guys...I miss you...I'm still here. Of course, now that I've written this, I'm sure I'll be feeling differently in about a week. I still love staying up till 3 a.m. with a glass of whisky, a joint, and a Marx Bros. flick on my own.

Lilies of fatigue

2004-12-16T09:13:00.000-06:00

Sweet Jumpin' Jesus on a Pogo stick I'm tired. I am working three jobs this week and on Mon. and Tue. I was working them all on the same day which was hecktick to say the least. I need to get more rest right now but some one has been staying over and I can't go to sleep so easly any more. Amplifier.com is an awesome job but it is only gonna last for another 2 weeks so I have to start applying at the capitol again. Damn It to hell!!! Right now I'm sitting at a computer in the apmlifier warehouse while they try and find something for me to do today. Maybe they will send me home so I can get some more sleep. Wish me luck. I'll report back when life allows me more energy. I worked my first night in over a year at Amy's last night and had fun with my boy Navi. He and I need to talk soon, though.

Connect Four! I win!

2004-12-07T12:41:00.000-06:00

So I am officially leaving the fuck of an annoying job, ZEN, and returning to my first love in Austin! I am an Amy's Kid again! See me on the weekend nites at SoCo for some cream in the face! I got the job at and will start there on Friday. This is the part time job that will hopefully lead to a full time position come summer time. Played Drunken Putt-Putt with Macy, E, Max, and Honey Homicide(who was there to watch) last Friday. Man I got trashed and no one won because we played aggressive putt-putt like your mom gets aggressive with the cucumber. Going to Lyrics Borne and RJD2 tonight with Emily. Wonder if this could be called a date or we is just on the friendly side. She is a really friendly girl so I shall assume it is as friends until otherwise notified. She is a cool person either way. My brain is short circuiting lately. In ways that makes me act wierd in private. I get all Tourets-y and start yelling wierd stuff in the car and appartment. I would actually like to pop those out in public more often. My left nip is almost healed up and it is about time for my next tattoo. This will be the one of Texas. I really need a schlitz. Love ya Macy, thanks for reading these and making me feel ultra-cool/super fly. Now fuck off Jewcifer!

Fluffy Wrath!

2004-12-03T11:33:00.000-06:00

I could start off by saying how sorry I am for blowing up Cuba yesterday but I think that goes without saying. I mean was anyone really using Cuba? I mean really. If one more person asks me to blow something up with my new found "Explodie Powers" I think I'll blow up Paraguay next. Then I'll move on to anything starting with the letter 't'. That will take a while but I'm prepared for the fame. I had to kill my co-worker Colin last night after we had a badass shift on First Thurs. @ Zen. Amy's SoCo Manager Sara is going to ask me back to Amy's next week and I will be the coolest guy ever again. I can't wait to get back to the boards. With that and Zen I should be able to make ends meet a lot better till I get a better part time job and drop Zen. People are walking down the aisle to get diplomas today and I'm only 9 hours away from completing my goal as well. I'll cross my testies and hope for the best. I will be playing drunken Putt-Putt this evening with a crew and I think this will be fun. If not I'll blow something else up that looks like Robert Logia. I can't wait for Lyrics Borne on Tue. Aye!

That isn't cheese!

2004-12-01T12:12:00.000-06:00

SO I got a hair cut in effort to look a little prettier for Emily, the girl who is far too cute to be interested in me and may very well not be, and met her and her friend Bob at the Continental. Toni Price happens every Tues. there and I have worked on SoCo for 2 years and not been, so I went. After I fought off a swarm of killer bees with my mental powers and snagged a 1-up token at Zen I met them over there. Bob was really tall so instead of doing the normal thing of defensively ignoring him and only talking to Emily I went the other way and chatted with him first to be friendly. If he was to be the chapperone or judge of whether or not I was cool enough then I was going to take on the challenge. At some random point after break, where I pleasantly found out Emily smokes a-bit, they decided to try and get as drunk as Toni Price is and so, being the good sport that I am I joined in. Bob dropped out when he realized he was going to have to be "The Designated" for the evening while I kept the New castles coming and Emily ended up with about 5 jack and cokes. I was fine and ready to roll on after the show, which was a fun evening I might add, she said her goodbyes to me and said she was feeling a bit green. Bob took over as care-taker at that point and I strted to walk off when I noticed she was heading for the bushes instead of the car. I figured that I was out of the picture now and she wouldn't want me to see her puke anyway, so I walked on like I saw nothing. Bob was "Care-Taker 3000 The Man from the Future" at that point and they were better friends so I don't think it was rude of me to go on home. Met Max at Zen as he finished closing and we went back to my place to bounce on the trampolene I keep in my closet and smoke while watching "Lone Wolf and Cub". All and All I say a good evening and a sucessful second encounter with The Emily. Cute girl at Texadelphia told me her name yesterday, too. Haven't met a Sandra in a while if ever. Cute but she wears a cross and I am a vampire in that way. Ah well. I love the ladies but they only kinda-lika me.

Bull Pains

2004-11-29T13:38:00.000-06:00

So if you see me hobbling around Austin this week then you have plenty of reason to laugh. Last Frday I went to Mex with my dad and after too many beers in one sitting we decided I needed to ride the Mechanical bull at the cowboy bar across the street. The place was half full and we ordered more drinks to be smart. I drank half of my beer before deciding it was my time. Got up there and remembered I needed to grip with my legs as well as my hand. I put in a good 15 second ride before the ride operator got pissed off at the skinny gringo and bucked me off. I waited to do my next ride for two reasons. One, I needed to let the rife operator forget about me for a bit or I wouldn't last 5 seconds the next time and two, because I needed another beer. 15 minutes go by and some LSU students help the bull operator to forget I can ride. I jump back on to a good ten seconds ride before I start getting tossed off to the side. But I wasn't done yet so I hung on to the side of the bull for 3-4 seconds before I right myself back on top. and clocked in another 8 seconds before slipping off the side again and pushing off horazontally. Well little did I know that I don't use my groin muscles that often and that I have damaged myself. I know have inflammed groin muscles and I fear I might have pulled both of them as the pain gets worse instead of better. I am almost limping now as is. Any one have any ideas on how to make it hurt less? Thanksgiving was good and I got to hang out with Atticus when I got back on Saturday and I really miss that kid. Back to school with a renewed vigor, I hope. Hope I don't have to amputate something because of my bull riding capabilities.

Flying over a pie

2004-11-24T05:52:00.000-06:00

I sit here writing at almost 4 in the morning for a few reasons. One because I'm home and can't fall asleep in my o0wn room anymore because it isn't my room. Two, my flights home were delayed due to thunder storms and I spent 5 hours in the crappy houston airport. I won't dignify houston with capitol letters. I have too much cock on the brain from reading, only, "A Mind Of Its Own: The Cultural history of the penis". I'm not sure if the 5 hour wait was worth it for the spectacular view the first flight afforded me. I don't usually fly at night, nor do I do it on a an almost full moon. I took the time to record my thoughts in my sketch book for lack of a better option.

"So here I sit flying at 7pm from Austin to houston, later to Harlingen, as my plane does long drunken swerves around thunder storms. The sky looks like I'm flying over a giant marangue pie. (spent a bit contemplating the spelling of that in my head, but to no avail) Flashes of lightning make the sky twinkle like an X-mas tree they are so frequent. I gaze (yeah, I said gaze) out my window and see these billious clouds as they take on shapes of Rock 'em Sock 'em Robots and imagine a wonderful samurai battle that could occur here with the right director and cinematographer. Meanwhile, the woman beside me has pulled out here portable Polaroid DVD player for the specific reason of watching "9 Months", you know the Hugh Grant thing. Who actually watches that movie a second time? Who says, "I'll take along '9 Months' for the trip. Ooo...and 'A Walk in The Clouds' too."? She does! Every once in a while you see a steak of lightning arching across the sky below me playing leap frog with the clouds. I looved clouds as a kid and my first realization that the mystical and magical may not exist came from them. I was still in the single digits, age-wise, when an asshole pilot, without regard for a child's fantasies, flew through one. I always thought they were more solid than that, I watched 'Care Bears' for poop's sake! After that I did a paper on Houdini and read some books that explained his magic tricks and lost all belief in magic. To this day you should never sit next to me at a magic show because I'll ruin it for you. I still have my imagination in tact but no more magical/mystical beliefs for moi.. houston approaches and the clouds depart."

I slept through the encore lightning performance on the second flight. It was meeger. Home now and drinking my emergency flask of "Makers" already so that I can sleep. Wish I had a 'J' to celebrate 4:20am but instead I shall drink myself into a stupor or as far as my flask shall get me. See ya kids! Feliz Dia De Jajalote!

Blind in the Left Eye

2004-11-22T11:01:00.000-06:00

So yesterday almost worked. Two friends got detained by work for an extra hour so they didn't make it to Dim Sum but Georgio did and he was fully appreciatory of the eating experience that he...experienced. The food was great as always, maybe even a bit better when you go with new people, and there was a new item that was good. A chicken pot pie with curried chicken in it. Oooo that was a goodun'! So not many people at Dim Sum but it was still delisssssiousss. Meanwhile, back at the lab, I went home to commence with my long day of sake and samurai movies. Started off with "Lone Wolf and Cub: Baby Cart To Hades" That was a winner and Ivan and Anna came over for the last hour of that and then left. Next was "Sakuya: Slayer of Demons" which had a lot of cool evil things and blue flames came out when they got cut, Woo! Dallas and his old ass friend came over and brought beer and I was all giggly until I wet myself...then I was sad. I was hitting that "I've been drinking for 4 hours" lull when, knock at the door, Alex, Sean, and Sky all appear. I fought I giant Gila Monster with a spoon and stuffed in my storage closet on my porch to play canasta with my Uncle Larry. Then, I layed down a personal favorite of mine, "Versus". This film has zombies, yakuza, Samurai, and some vampirism. Not only that but a sense of humor and great action directing. Kati showed up for the last half of that and hung out till one after everyone else left. Finished off the entire giant bottle sake mostly on my own but with some help from loyal friends. Kati says she will make me a Gir tool to clean out my bowl and that sounds pretty cool and I think she is keen, too, but I am confused as to why she has just 'started' kinda hanging out after only running into her a few times at clubs. She give good shoulder rubs though. Maybe I will get this job that I interviewed with @ amplifier.com That would be swell because I could get a career out of it I betcha.

Owch!Owch!Owch!

2004-11-20T16:00:00.000-06:00

Owch! My left Tit is Mutilated! So this was by far the worst pain I've ever felt during a piercing. Last night I had my left nip re-pierced to match the right. God damn! I let the man talk me into getting it done with a 12 gage instead of the 14 I got last time. He had the clamps on my titty so tight I couldn't even get all hot over it. And to tell you the truth, I think there was some scar tissue to be delt with and that is why it went in good but didn't want to go out the otherside so easily. That was such a big damn needle. I almost Blacked out about 3 minutes after he did it from the stress release and the room got real hot from the realease of my body Heeeeat cuz I'm a furnace. I kinda hunchedbacked my way home before going out to a depressing nite of drinking alone again. Why do I punish myself But now I can say I had a Norwegian Man named Gurt savage my left titty for money! Also I am trying out Samurai Sundays to see if it works out. We'll see.

People are regular I'm unleaded

2004-11-13T16:28:00.000-06:00

So, I'm broke right now which hasn't happened in over a year and a half. I have pretty much no money to live off of but I have a miracle known as a credit card that I haven't used in over a year with a nice bit of room on it. I pray that people tip more than usual at Zen so I can buy more smack to inject into my penis, as we all know that is why I'm broke. I went with a lovely lady to the Austin Museum of Art yesterday and it twern't that bad. Lost my car for a bit on the way back but we found it. I saw this exhibit on Ghosts that had a lot of lame staged photographs from when people went "Ooo...pretty." whenever they saw one. Hard to believe in that kind of gullibility now a days but hey you saw the prez race. There were about 5-6 pieces that I really dug in a way more than just the usual, "Oh hey. Would ya look at that. Hmm.." kind of way. There was this strange video in another exhibit from Vietam that was a video of these 6 guys dragging rickshaws under water. Seriously started on shore and made it to about 15-20 ft deep water by peddling and pulling. No real explanation why but they have a far better lung capacity than I. I talked with my friend about girls and she talked about guys and I realized that I'm ready to date some one that could be a girlfriend. It's about that time, maybe because it's winter and I crave the body beside me to warm up and cuddle on the couch on weekend mornings with a blanket and watching cartoons. Eh, I kinda decided that I'll date until I find one that I really dig that I'll settle down with for a bit. I miss the connection and self realization that comes with it. She is still just as crazy as I remembered and is doing the "I'm 22 and I can afford to screw up a bit" routine. Wish I had that option but I had the chance and became a stoner, amy's kid, alcoholic, school drop out, do nothing but watch movies kind of guy. I'll tell ya it took me a long time to get out of that once I went back to school. Slowly but surely I am getting back on my feet and this is a good thing. Watched "Cool As Ice" with my friend Max last night and I am still in awe, even after this being my second viewing, of how horrid this movie is. I mean this movie is probably one of the worst I have seen in a long time. Those that know me know that that is saying alot. So in summary: Don't talk about sex with cute girls you aren't dating (especially when you don't know when you'll get some again), pulling rickshaws under water is hard, ghosts aren't real and neither are mediums, watching people play video gams is boring as fuck.

Washer of the Doomed

2004-11-10T02:19:00.000-06:00

So. I don't really hate working at on SoCo that much anymore but I'll tell you what I do hate and that is dishes. I wash them and wash them but theyt always get dirty again and I am forced to wash them yet again. Last night I was back washing dishes but with about half the normal amount as Ernesto, one of my favorite cooks, had done alot for me ahead of time. I entered into a dilemma once he put on some music in the kitchen to close the back with. Was it better to have all of the dishes to do and tell him to turn off the music or better to have half the dishes done and not be able to change the nightmare? I call it a nightmare because this cd was filled with every 'La Bouche', 'Ace of Base', 'Aqua', and any other band who did that horrible 90's crap on it. I hated washing dishes at the end of the night back in high school to this music that was on the radio, but now someone chose this to be on the cd player and my life has come full circle. Dear god in heaven if that music wasn't the most shallow, insipid, utterly purile crap I have ever heard! I had forgotten how bad it was. Even 80's music had more substance than most of these songs with chouruses consisting of "la dada deeda da da da" or "say heeeeey hooooooo! You say it! Heeeeey Hooooo!" What the fuck? So here I'm thinking this hase to be "MTV's Party To Go 6" from like '96 or '97 but lo and behold when he puls out the cd from the player(which was like having the dentist pull his foot out of your ass and stopping the drilling at the same time) the cd said "La Boom Party 2004"!!!!!! Jesus Christ, some one took the time to burn this cd and create a lable and they did it this year! I was in a state of complete mortifactation for the human race alomaost more so than after the election. Some one found these songs online, or worse already had them, and created this horrid mix cd. There is no God and this was proof. But I made 30 bucks in tips so my ears bled for a price. I went home and got kinda high and went to sleep.

Wax dat with a vengeance

2004-11-08T11:47:00.000-06:00

I think my cat likes me again. She and I weren't spending enough time together but I have stayed home and studied lately so I think we are cool again. I went to Chevron last night for some gas only to wait in line for about eight minutes while they figured out credit machine problems. I did a little dance to keep from getting bored and got a high 5 from the register girl 'Jessica'. There are way to many people I know named Jessica right now. When I was a freshman everyone I met was named Stephanie. Whatever. The guy behind me in chevron looked like Carl from Aqua Teen Hunger Force. Blue jean shorts, a wife-beater, a silver chain with a cross, and severely balding. He was waiting in line behind me and I had to use all my will power not to stare at him. Me being pretty high in line helped but He was buying a bag of cheetos, only. Until he spotted his undiscovered bliss...a foot and 1/2 long slim jim processed beef stick. He snached that up with some extreme reverence, let me tell ya. The whole 8 minutes in line he is munching on his cheetos because he couldn't wait for that Chester cheetah glory, but every minute or so he would drop his bag and bend over to pick it up. All this was happening behind me but damn it was funny. Like he just couldn't handle carrying a bag of cheetos and a beef stick at the same time. I had a very hard time not cracking up as I pumped my gas only to see him walk across the parking lot and drop the bag once more for dramatic effect. I missed out on Rudy "Dolemite" Ray Moore because my professor's ranch is over an hour outside of Austin but it were a whole bunch of fun though. He gave every one extra points for kissing his livestock and took pictures of it. It's kinda of sick and If I see www.utstudentanimallove.com pop up on the net soon I want some royalties. Dad and Kelly came through on Sat. and we had a fairly good time and I got shit faced while they enjoyed the UT game at Fado's. Me,"keep the New Castles coming there on pops. Yeah some one threw a ball to some one. Woo." That is how much I love football. Like a live eel in my right eyesocket trying to type his mother's name on my cortex with a dull Sharpe. Need to do a mass of school stuff before wed. So pray for me. Need to go out on a date with some one soon or I'll wither up and turn into Ethel Merman. The word for the day is: Japanese Alice

Spooky-Day spent...

2004-11-01T15:14:00.000-06:00

So I worked sunday morning after a long night of Partying at my good man Ivan's House and had an alright time. I then went home had a few beers and dressed up like a playing card for a bit. I had to do this for a class sketch @ 5 on a paddle boat on Town Lake. We were all doing Alice in Wonderland bits. It were fun until our boat hit the Congress Bridge. Yup, just floating along wishing the ship serven alcohol only to look over and see that the captain isn't driving any more and the bat narrator is casually talking about well....bats and we are drifting sideways towards the central bridge column. Wait, now the narrator has gone down stairs too and no one is driving the boat? Ok. Hey yeah we are definitly going to hit the bridge. Bang! Yup we did. Then, as it were only a spooky Seven o'clock I walked back to my place to drink more and find out where the parties are at? So I decide to watch a flick at wait till ten to leave my abode. I put on 'Lost in Translation' and found out what a great movie it is. I stopped the movie at an hour in to go on a whim to go get Sake and a couple of bowls of instand udon from Whole Foods. Got the sake but no udon soups per say...so I got to expensive chicken pot pies which are all natural of course but at 5 bucks a pop they better make me a complete person and psycho analyse my cat, too. Oh but wait! I need a pumpkin. By the way folks, I am so completely high at Whole Foods it is ridiculous. Like, I probably should have stayed at home for anothe hour to clear my head but dammit I'm a functional pot head! I have a brilliant Idea for a pumpkin and I haven't carved one this year. That'll be a Good Spooky-Day celebratory thing! Then, I'll go over to Space Dogg's House to chill. Yes, after the movie and the pumpkin...Spacey's place. No pumpkin! HEB: No pumpkin! Well folks, I decided to finish the movie and drink the sake and eat my pot pies. They were spookly-good pot pies but needed seasoning. Am I wrong or should $5 pot pies already taste great and not need me to grab a salt shaker? I got a spooky burnt tongue from the pot pies and drank a tokuri of sake befor realizing I had smoked two more joints. The movie finished I watched all the extras and then realized I had faded myself. I resigned to lay on the couch till someone called for me and asked for my presence and if not lull off into spooky sleepy land place thing. Max-Attax called cuz he were off of work now and I showed him ' Freddy VS. Jason' because I think it is a great horror film with a nice amount of cheeze mixed in. After that I played the Halloween episode of Invader Zim
for him and then had to really go to sleep as it was 2 in the morning. The rain kept Max on my couch since I don't want him riding his bike home in the heavy rains of spookiness. So he spookly crashed on my couch.

That was my Spooky-Day Celebration.

I think I was ok with that. My partying on Sat. in my Shaun-o-the Dead costume was enough to tide me over till next time.

!Si! ?Yo Soy Enrique?

2004-10-28T15:02:00.000-05:00

So, I went to The Ritz
last night to relax after way too many hours in the computer lab yesterday. I was bored just drinking so I started playing pool on my own cuz it was free. After 3 games where I lost to my self severly, and won by a narrow margin, some people approached my table because they noiticed mine was free. They wanted to play too but I was just fuckin' around so I said ok but I suck tonite. They insisted on doubles but the people I were meeting weren't there yet so I said ok. I needed a partner and they picked one out for me. My partner turned out to be this drunken guy in his late twenties who had a hard time keeping his eyes at half mast. He walked up to me and said,"So, you're Enrique, huh?"..... Yeah he said this. I said," You got it, man. You ready to be down with the Enrique?" Not only did this guy play better than me in his state but he started calling me 'Strykah', too. So here I am playing pool with complete stranges loosing my ass and being called Enrique. We lost the first round miserablely so Our Drunken Boxer of a pool player orders he and I shots to get our courage and focus up. We won the last two games simply because the other team tippy tapped the eight ball into its home prematurely. All the while afore that talking shit about us. The worst part of it all was that I felt worse for the drunky who had me as a partner. My gal Erica showed up in time to help me ditcfh the game grab a slice of Hoek's and drink a few more pints over some badly played games of pool and air hockey before we parted ways. I got home @ 1:30, smoked a bowl, drank a 1/3 of a coke, put on the first episode of Red Dwarf, the BBC series, and passed out on my floor before it was over only to wake up at four and walk to bed. This whole going out on my own thing is getting to be more interesting. Tonight I will be meeting a new gal and going to the Ritz for $2 pint nite and getting a free Ritz shirt from my Gal Pal Jillian.

Burn Me Right there

2004-10-27T13:54:00.000-05:00

So without my beard I feel like I've lost my compass in life. I wander around aimlessly through the desert wastelands of beardlessness until I come upon a wise old man who has an enormous and beautiful beard. He looks right through my soul because I have no beard to protect me and sees my inner beard. He tells me to let it out and be free. So I'm growing it out again until the next job interview. Be Kind Please Rewind. So I had a Casino Burger last night and loved every moment. It is like a pure hedonistic delight to sit there burning my mouth on a hot Buffalo Burger and explosivo chicken wings. A couple of New Castles later I am a complete person. It is a pleasure pain thing. If you haven't had a casino burger yet then please contact me for an outing as soon as possible.
Casino El Camino!

Sampson and the Capitol

2004-10-25T13:53:00.000-05:00

So I have shaved off my beard once again but this time for a purpose. They don't hire people with facial hair at the Capitol! Bastards! Not only that but I am currently on my third day of sobriety so as to pass the drug test they probably won't give me on Tue. No Caffeine, No Alcohol, No Weed, Not even a cigarette to keep me company. So I am doing alright under the circumstances but damn it sucks to have a day off like yesterday and not get to enjoy my vices. Thank Omni that I don't get random drug tests there. Only the one time and then I am back. Well I want my beard back cause now I feel like I'm 18 again and I don't have any want to stay on the wagon of sobriety any more than I have to. Any of you who ever wondered what it is like to hang out with me while I'm sober should give me a call. It is a bit different when I can't sedate my self and repress all my energy. Hope you all have a good time with your sins. I'll be back soon.

Cock blocked out!

2004-10-22T15:01:00.000-05:00

Well every one Cunt Face lived up to her name and kicked me off my 'myspace'. I changed my password so she would stop checking my mail and then she went ape shit and changed my email address log on so that I have no idea how to get on to my page then proceeded to delete it. Hope she feels better about herself. Oh well. It was fun while it lasted. I hope this person really finds this amusing as I know she will. Maybe next time I should be nicer to my friends. Oh wait I was and they dicked me without a word. Great! As tou can tell it took me almost 2 hours to recreate my page, including all my blogs. Oh well. Needless to say I won't be using a friend to build a site for me again. I am just sorry that we couldn't work things out but cunt and douchey refuse to talk to me. Sad.

CHEERS to all the good times we had you bastardsI will miss them!

testicils of hate!!!

2004-10-22T13:47:00.000-05:00

Believe it or not folks but there are times when I really hate my testicles. I hardly ever hate my penis because it's not his fault I get horny. That blame belongs to the two guys in the hammock that keep egging him on. I went to the DJ Krush show last night(for those that don't know he is an awesome Japanese hip-hop dj) and I got really fed up with the two bastards. Here I am out on a night alone for the first time in months, trying to meet people and just enjoy the music. No one I knew was there so I allowed the music to take me a bit and I danced some. Those who know me have seen me dance little those who don't know me have seen me dance alot. But instead of me just simply enjoying the music and grooving for a couple of hours, I keep wondering if the girl dancing next to me keeps bumping into me on purpose or is she just caught up in her own blazing disco inferno? Also, are the two girls that moved in front of me during the break there because they wanted to step up closer to me or are they just doing the music thing too? What about that girl over there? She might be.... No Nothing Nada. I should have just enjoyed rthe music but instead my head keeps going back to girls. In the end I left without saying hello or breaking the ice at all because that is how pathetic I am. I agonize over this shit and then do nothing because I'm so fucking lame. I then went over to my favorite bar, The Ritz, to have a few less expensive drinks and unwind from the beats. So as I walk all the sugar plumbs are dancing in my head, saying things to me that might be considered promising. Maybe there will be a cute girl who approaches me tonight or I will see that some gal digs me and I can work up the courage to ask her. No Nothing Nada. I see girls who lock eyes with me and all I can do is smile and nod and pass them by. I'm so fucking pathetic. I end up sitting at a table alone until they yell last call. When I proceed to the door and walk home. I really wish that my wild out going personality carried over to other environments besides with my friends. I am alot of fun and great company but I can't say "HI". I just thought I'd take a moment to tell every one how disappointed in myself I am. I can't say 'hi'. How fucking hard is that to do? How fucking lame!

Why, my monkeys? Why?

2004-10-19T13:44:00.000-05:00

I am getting organized after a rather traumatic visit with my dad. I am taking care of my warrant, time warner bill, and I bought a filing cabnet and have filed all my papers in the apartment. That filing cabnet thing is amazing. All the loose papers, drawings, notes, bills, school crap: all in one place. Let's hear it for Organization. Hopefully a new A.D.D. drug for me on the way. Any one know someone for me to take out for dinner/drinks/ and a movie at my place? Lookin' for some one new. Dating is constructive and healthy, right?

My pants!!! Dear God MY Pants!!!!

2004-10-13T13:44:00.000-05:00

So I am feeling a bit like a loser right now. Some of my friends have dropped off the face of the earth and I don't know why, I dropped a class and now have to shell out 300 bucks for a distance learning course, I am starting to feel like the ladies don't want me anymore, I broke sky's heart(or whatever it is she has in there(a weather vane)), and I can't keep my house clean no matter how hard I try. I feel like I'm back sliding on the slip-n'-slide of life. I don't want this depression again but I need to pick myself up and go do some job interviews today. If I can secure a job then at least I'll feel worth something. You know what? That's exactly what it is. I feel worthless to everyone right now and I really just want to feel needed. I will probably shove a Barry Manalowe Record into my head as punishment for being so lame. Wow. I really suck and I can't get used to it.

ship shape like Titanica

2004-10-05T13:36:00.000-05:00

Current mood: content
The first night of anime went over well and I have hooked everyone on to it now. Naruto is officially a hit! I am drinking too much every night and I just found out that my bitches are moving to Canida without even telling me about it. I am treding water at school just barely but I think I can juggle it. I am coughing up a lung every so often cuz I am sick right now. Some news of interest, Hope the OM of Amy's Ice Creams wants me back but my year away from Amy's isn't over yet. I would go back there in a heart beat. I am on a kick where I like to sing the chorus of "private dancer" to Max at work in the 'Tina' voice but I don't think I see anything too wrong with that. I put up new pictures which should excite exactly no one but me and my monkey. Until the next time people, "I'm dancing like a monkey! Monkey Dance!"

Heroin is on the menu

2004-09-30T13:42:00.000-05:00

I am rather happy to announce that I will be starting up anime nite again either this monday or the next depending upon the participant's schedule. Macy is out and so too might be Alex but we shall see. This makes room for Travis and Candice who I completely neglected on my list due to pot-headery. Travis is one of the OGs and his girl dressed up like Faye Valentine for Halloween. That qualifies her and travis was no question. Those were the only two people I had on a waiting list though. It was a list so secret I think it's safe to say I forgot. If anyone else drops out I believe it would be fortuitous for us as a smaller group then the necessary ten is preferred. To all those who wished to be part I apologize but I have to keep a strict line drawn, so much so that anyone who gets a ride to my place can't have their ride stay, eek. This nite is a commitment to becoming a family like no other before. We stop when the first person leaves and if you don't show up for a night we won't wait till next week. This is all due to my fore-sight and will become apparent later. Boy I sound self-important but I have to make sure anime Monday doesn't get out of hand like it did last time. In short, it is a club not a social hour as most treated it before. I love you all but there can be only a chosen few due to apt. space and overt possibilities of distraction. I have 29 hours of this shit and it makes me hard just thinking about it.

Like a phoenix with hot sauce

2004-09-22T13:26:00.000-05:00

So I think I'm going to start up anime nite again depending on two things. 1: If the anime series I just ordered in has good subtitles. 2: I have to keep the number of people at my house at 10. This is the difficult part as I don't want to exclude any friends but there are those who came to the nites before and never really paid that much attention to the anime. I have a working list but 2-3 of them are tentative in my head. I have to cut people out who aren't old school automatically, so I can't really invite new friends to the night. At the same time there are three people who have inspired me to start up the anime night again. Annuh, Lyn-C, and Max-tastic. These three, should they wish to join are the only new additions. I fanny bail out then I can add new folk. My list stands like this:Evan Macy Cameron Travis Max Lyns Annuh Sean Alex Skyx x x xI would invite Ivan but he has no car to get back and forth and the same might be true for sky. Alex has a new guy that she hangs with in San Marcos while in school and I don't know that she will want to make the drive on a Mon. nite. I will have to call these people and check. I do anticipate at least one-two drop outs out of the ten I should think. Oh well. I think I'll place it on Mondays and lay out the official rules for the nite before it starts. No one knew how anime night used to be so when all the new people joined it became really unorganized. I wish my place was big enough for more than 10 and that if I did have more than 10 they would all shut up and pay attention but hey What can I do. This probably won't come to pass for at least a week so this could not end up happening.

it's like heroin but better!

2004-09-21T13:25:00.000-05:00

Man oh man... in less than two weeks I have watched 50 episodes of this anime series. I can't stop and the only reason I have right now is because I don't get the next 50 till this weekend. Hurry Ricky Hurry!!! If you want to know the name..... "Naruto". Like Dragon Ball Z but about 3x as fast and far more intelligent. It draws you in slowly and then by episode 7 or 8 you are interested. Ahhhhh! When it has you there you are a goner. Like a drug that feels pretty good and every time you go back it is better. You could quit, I mean it's a long series, do you really want to get into it? Well a few more episodes to see if it gets better like it already has been. Ooo that was cool. Woah! Awesome! Oh my Fucking God Did that Just Happen! these are the levels leading up to episode 17 or 18. After that you are on your way to selling your personal articles and bed simply for another episode. I am a Naruto disciple. Heed my words...."This anime is big"!

3-2-1 abstract

2004-09-17T07:24:00.000-05:00

Man I had 3 1/2 hours o sleep last night did a 3000 word project, another 2 page paper got up went to class, posted my project on line, going to another class, going to work @ 5-11:30, then home to write another 2 page paper on a book that I'm trying to finish after this blog, then get up go to class at nine Friday turn in paper, finish classes @ eleven, go home and nap till three when I have to go to work and then come home to a coma waiting to happen. Send me some well wishes people cause I work again sunday and then I have a test monday. Damn this sucks. Let me feel some good karma comin' my way and it'll come back to ya I swear.Oh yeah, and if anyone can offer a good rubbing for my shoulders then I would probably melt into puddin' and gurrrgle a bit. Thanks.

ahhhh women still suck!

2004-09-13T13:22:00.000-05:00

So I have had a few friends say, "Don't worrry. They're not all that way." or ,"Hey, We're not all like that!" Guess what? I know, but I don't meet those girls...I meet the others. The ones who know you have been betrayed in the past and say what a nice guy you are and you should learn to trust people again. They open up to you and you feel like you could trust people again. And then they lie to you and you realize that it just doesn't stop. Women don't stop being deceptive with you they only cycle in a new deceiver. Man, if one more female tells me I should just let go of the past and start trusting again then I'm gonna e'splode! It is like dangling a treat in front of a dog and smacking his nose right after he bites it. If you do that over and over again...say three four times...the dog won't go for it. Pavlovian response, am I right? I can't take another innocent face lying to me or another accusation of infidelity. I get these too fucking often for not doing either one. I might just start lying and fucking around so as to even the playing field or at least earn the treatment I keep getting heaped on to me. If I didn't have this horrible cycle of complete adoration of women then I would stop the self afflicted abuse. I love the treat that they dangle in front of me, no matter how hard they smack my nose. God, I'm so pathetic. Now I have to get this one girl out of my dreams before it drives me mad, but it already has.

Well my pancreas is still intact

2004-09-05T13:22:00.000-05:00

I am very glad to see that my weekend with my parents went extremely well and I am not in a downward spiral of pain and misery that shall last me for merely an eternity. As a matter of fact My outlook on things is pretty good aside from the fact that I'm gonna have to work my ass off to finish my last semester at UT. I hope this growth on my right arm stops trying to convince me that we are siamese twins and just let me stick a wart pad on him. He keeps smoking my weed when I'm asleep and that's a big no no. My fridge is stocked and that is good except for the fact that it is all so full that I want to cry and gorge myself on taquitos now that I have the keys to the food kingdom. I really think I am going to be more proactive in seeking out dating people or should I say females? I don't know. Either way, The new BJork album "Medulla" is amazing in a way I haven't experienced in a while. Check it.
Late,
C-Note

this one sticks

2004-09-02T13:20:00.000-05:00

So I am settling into the swing of school hopefully as soon as I get all my books. My car was broken and is now partially fixed $400 down $1100 to go before my car is good again. Damn! Anyway, pops and kelly are coming into town this weekend and that can be good but I have to tip toe around alot of stuff to avoid a break down between dad and I. I feel an epiphany coming on soon and I hope it's a good one. I am at a point where I need to finish getting my shit together physically and emotionally and I have some help with that now. I realized that even though I thought I was better and over the whole Armageddon of my life that happened 2 years ago, I have been hiding from myself behind the beer and the weed. I still am not comfortable with myself nor do I like myself all that much, still. I need to feel worthy of myself before I commit to anyone else. So my old slogan is coming back into play. "I'm picking up where I never should have left off." I am kinda excited about how all this is gonna turn out. Right now I just need to organize and not self-medicate so much. Michelle, if you read these at all...thanks for ruining my life 2 years ago because...,"It's only after you've lost everything that you're free to do anything." Tyler’s words coming out of my mouth...and I used to be such a nice guy.

It's blog. it's blog, it's big, it's heavy, I've got wood.

2004-08-06T13:10:00.000-05:00

So I really don't know if I passed my ASL 2 class and that could really fuck things up for me. I need a C to go forward with my ASL and graduate on time. Man, I really need to dicking around with school and finish up strong but I'll be damned if it doesn't already feel like it's over. I haven't been sleeping as much as I should and I'll blame that on me and one other person but this has increased my napping time and decreased my productive time. Oh well, I dressed up all sexy in my suit to drop off resumes and applications at the Capitol yesterday. I really feel nervous around business people. They seem so fake or grown up high school kid for me. They all have bland senses of humor too for all I can see. I make generalizations because I can. If you can't tell, I have been sawing off my left arm while writing this and I hope that you find the quality of my writing improved with the loss of an appendage. If you want to watch kung fu then you should come by my place any time after mid-night. That's when I watch it now-a-days. I find myself always to the left of where I thought I was. Strange, that.Oh yeah, and Sister Mary Jane just keeps gettin' cooler and cooler. I think she's keen

Take it out of the box 1st!

2004-07-27T13:13:00.000-05:00

So I bought one of those tongue Joy things and I can't wait to try it out but I'm on a circling pattern for the standard days out of the month. I really am drinking way too much lately as well as smoking too. Yay me! I have become the lush I've always dreamed of. I'm well sexed right now and feeling rather chipper about life's prospects. Now if only I could get this Ferret out of my right eye socket, as he is causing a disturbance in the force. I think I may need a tazer for this.

I never wrote this, trust me.

2004-07-13T13:15:00.000-05:00

So for all of you wondering I'm back and better than ever. My batteries just got charged last night and I'm ready to take on the world. I don't know what the last 24 hours has meant to me yet but I'll tell you one thing, I love da punani. Mez well rested hafta a nice night wit me julie. If anything I can hope that this provides the motivation I've been waiting for to get my shit together. Strange that I need someone else around to make me realize I need to do that but whatevuh. ROllerderby was awesome and my brownies kicked ass! Holy Rollers are the best team out there. Bar none. I will soon be fighting my former friend Ivan to the death for Mary Jane's honor (as well as other things). I'm shaken and confused and happy. Awesome like a hot dog!

Can I get a new hip?

2004-07-05T13:16:00.000-05:00

I'm doing good here in Austin, and if all goes well I'll have a steady normal job as soon as I'm done with UT. I'm going to Vegas in December! I have one more semester at UT. I'll get paid 30,000 a year. I'm gonna be a pimp I should think. Now if only I could get these little purple things out of my head. I know they're there and they won't stop playing teatherball with my childhood memories. Not only that but they constantly blast this Venga Boys song in my head. You know the one about the bus coming. That song should have never been made. I need to get a fumigator up in there so I can sleep better at night. Any suggestions. Tepidation, maybe? My wrist hurts too and strangely enough it isn't from masturbation. I need a new wrist more than a new hip but I'll take both if you're offering.P.S. I really want someone to get on me about getting my movie list together. If someone would just give me a push or coordinate with me it would be boss. Meh.

Step to you, Honda.

2004-07-02T13:17:00.000-05:00

I'm tired of hearing my car click every time I turn the wheel too far. I'm gonna kick my car's ass or fix it. Whatever comes first. I had a date the other night and I achieved the goal of not looking like a complete jack ass. Who'd of thought? She called me and asked about this saturday...I said yes. Rock! I need to drop a class and soon. I missed the only paper we have due in this class due to me never checking a syllabus. Isn't it the professor's job to keep us up to date on something he has already given us in writing at the beginning of the semester? Right, I fucked up. Anyways, after that is done with I need to save up some cash to go to the titty bar with Cunt and Douche. I want to clean up my apt. now that the rain has stopped. I really want the weekend to come so that I can't be held responsible for some things till monday. I'm really a huge slacker now instead of a procrastinator. I am so almost done with school I should really get my act together. But I won't. I really want to start working at the capitol and leave Zen because I am done with food service in my head. Space Dog just ditched Pound and now she has done a bit a talking to me so I think I can Handle the "STEVE" now. He is a very emotionally weak man and can't keep a friend for more than a year. I like to hear these things. I was doing cloud nine until I realized I have to drop a class, other than that I think that everything will be fine if I can clean up the apt. and get my school organized within the next week. That is all my little flaming monkeys of desire. I shall talk to you of my banal life again soon. Tah

Cam the Shrimper.