Wax dat with a vengeance

I think my cat likes me again. She and I weren't spending enough time together but I have stayed home and studied lately so I think we are cool again. I went to Chevron last night for some gas only to wait in line for about eight minutes while they figured out credit machine problems. I did a little dance to keep from getting bored and got a high 5 from the register girl 'Jessica'. There are way to many people I know named Jessica right now. When I was a freshman everyone I met was named Stephanie. Whatever. The guy behind me in chevron looked like Carl from Aqua Teen Hunger Force. Blue jean shorts, a wife-beater, a silver chain with a cross, and severely balding. He was waiting in line behind me and I had to use all my will power not to stare at him. Me being pretty high in line helped but He was buying a bag of cheetos, only. Until he spotted his undiscovered bliss...a foot and 1/2 long slim jim processed beef stick. He snached that up with some extreme reverence, let me tell ya. The whole 8 minutes in line he is munching on his cheetos because he couldn't wait for that Chester cheetah glory, but every minute or so he would drop his bag and bend over to pick it up. All this was happening behind me but damn it was funny. Like he just couldn't handle carrying a bag of cheetos and a beef stick at the same time. I had a very hard time not cracking up as I pumped my gas only to see him walk across the parking lot and drop the bag once more for dramatic effect. I missed out on Rudy "Dolemite" Ray Moore because my professor's ranch is over an hour outside of Austin but it were a whole bunch of fun though. He gave every one extra points for kissing his livestock and took pictures of it. It's kinda of sick and If I see www.utstudentanimallove.com pop up on the net soon I want some royalties. Dad and Kelly came through on Sat. and we had a fairly good time and I got shit faced while they enjoyed the UT game at Fado's. Me,"keep the New Castles coming there on pops. Yeah some one threw a ball to some one. Woo." That is how much I love football. Like a live eel in my right eyesocket trying to type his mother's name on my cortex with a dull Sharpe. Need to do a mass of school stuff before wed. So pray for me. Need to go out on a date with some one soon or I'll wither up and turn into Ethel Merman. The word for the day is: Japanese Alice

Spooky-Day spent...

So I worked sunday morning after a long night of Partying at my good man Ivan's House and had an alright time. I then went home had a few beers and dressed up like a playing card for a bit. I had to do this for a class sketch @ 5 on a paddle boat on Town Lake. We were all doing Alice in Wonderland bits. It were fun until our boat hit the Congress Bridge. Yup, just floating along wishing the ship serven alcohol only to look over and see that the captain isn't driving any more and the bat narrator is casually talking about well....bats and we are drifting sideways towards the central bridge column. Wait, now the narrator has gone down stairs too and no one is driving the boat? Ok. Hey yeah we are definitly going to hit the bridge. Bang! Yup we did. Then, as it were only a spooky Seven o'clock I walked back to my place to drink more and find out where the parties are at? So I decide to watch a flick at wait till ten to leave my abode. I put on 'Lost in Translation' and found out what a great movie it is. I stopped the movie at an hour in to go on a whim to go get Sake and a couple of bowls of instand udon from Whole Foods. Got the sake but no udon soups per say...so I got to expensive chicken pot pies which are all natural of course but at 5 bucks a pop they better make me a complete person and psycho analyse my cat, too. Oh but wait! I need a pumpkin. By the way folks, I am so completely high at Whole Foods it is ridiculous. Like, I probably should have stayed at home for anothe hour to clear my head but dammit I'm a functional pot head! I have a brilliant Idea for a pumpkin and I haven't carved one this year. That'll be a Good Spooky-Day celebratory thing! Then, I'll go over to Space Dogg's House to chill. Yes, after the movie and the pumpkin...Spacey's place. No pumpkin! HEB: No pumpkin! Well folks, I decided to finish the movie and drink the sake and eat my pot pies. They were spookly-good pot pies but needed seasoning. Am I wrong or should $5 pot pies already taste great and not need me to grab a salt shaker? I got a spooky burnt tongue from the pot pies and drank a tokuri of sake befor realizing I had smoked two more joints. The movie finished I watched all the extras and then realized I had faded myself. I resigned to lay on the couch till someone called for me and asked for my presence and if not lull off into spooky sleepy land place thing. Max-Attax called cuz he were off of work now and I showed him ' Freddy VS. Jason' because I think it is a great horror film with a nice amount of cheeze mixed in. After that I played the Halloween episode of Invader Zim
for him and then had to really go to sleep as it was 2 in the morning. The rain kept Max on my couch since I don't want him riding his bike home in the heavy rains of spookiness. So he spookly crashed on my couch.

That was my Spooky-Day Celebration.

I think I was ok with that. My partying on Sat. in my Shaun-o-the Dead costume was enough to tide me over till next time.

!Si! ?Yo Soy Enrique?

So, I went to The Ritz
last night to relax after way too many hours in the computer lab yesterday. I was bored just drinking so I started playing pool on my own cuz it was free. After 3 games where I lost to my self severly, and won by a narrow margin, some people approached my table because they noiticed mine was free. They wanted to play too but I was just fuckin' around so I said ok but I suck tonite. They insisted on doubles but the people I were meeting weren't there yet so I said ok. I needed a partner and they picked one out for me. My partner turned out to be this drunken guy in his late twenties who had a hard time keeping his eyes at half mast. He walked up to me and said,"So, you're Enrique, huh?"..... Yeah he said this. I said," You got it, man. You ready to be down with the Enrique?" Not only did this guy play better than me in his state but he started calling me 'Strykah', too. So here I am playing pool with complete stranges loosing my ass and being called Enrique. We lost the first round miserablely so Our Drunken Boxer of a pool player orders he and I shots to get our courage and focus up. We won the last two games simply because the other team tippy tapped the eight ball into its home prematurely. All the while afore that talking shit about us. The worst part of it all was that I felt worse for the drunky who had me as a partner. My gal Erica showed up in time to help me ditcfh the game grab a slice of Hoek's and drink a few more pints over some badly played games of pool and air hockey before we parted ways. I got home @ 1:30, smoked a bowl, drank a 1/3 of a coke, put on the first episode of Red Dwarf, the BBC series, and passed out on my floor before it was over only to wake up at four and walk to bed. This whole going out on my own thing is getting to be more interesting. Tonight I will be meeting a new gal and going to the Ritz for $2 pint nite and getting a free Ritz shirt from my Gal Pal Jillian.

Burn Me Right there

So without my beard I feel like I've lost my compass in life. I wander around aimlessly through the desert wastelands of beardlessness until I come upon a wise old man who has an enormous and beautiful beard. He looks right through my soul because I have no beard to protect me and sees my inner beard. He tells me to let it out and be free. So I'm growing it out again until the next job interview. Be Kind Please Rewind. So I had a Casino Burger last night and loved every moment. It is like a pure hedonistic delight to sit there burning my mouth on a hot Buffalo Burger and explosivo chicken wings. A couple of New Castles later I am a complete person. It is a pleasure pain thing. If you haven't had a casino burger yet then please contact me for an outing as soon as possible.
Casino El Camino!

Sampson and the Capitol

So I have shaved off my beard once again but this time for a purpose. They don't hire people with facial hair at the Capitol! Bastards! Not only that but I am currently on my third day of sobriety so as to pass the drug test they probably won't give me on Tue. No Caffeine, No Alcohol, No Weed, Not even a cigarette to keep me company. So I am doing alright under the circumstances but damn it sucks to have a day off like yesterday and not get to enjoy my vices. Thank Omni that I don't get random drug tests there. Only the one time and then I am back. Well I want my beard back cause now I feel like I'm 18 again and I don't have any want to stay on the wagon of sobriety any more than I have to. Any of you who ever wondered what it is like to hang out with me while I'm sober should give me a call. It is a bit different when I can't sedate my self and repress all my energy. Hope you all have a good time with your sins. I'll be back soon.

Cock blocked out!

Well every one Cunt Face lived up to her name and kicked me off my 'myspace'. I changed my password so she would stop checking my mail and then she went ape shit and changed my email address log on so that I have no idea how to get on to my page then proceeded to delete it. Hope she feels better about herself. Oh well. It was fun while it lasted. I hope this person really finds this amusing as I know she will. Maybe next time I should be nicer to my friends. Oh wait I was and they dicked me without a word. Great! As tou can tell it took me almost 2 hours to recreate my page, including all my blogs. Oh well. Needless to say I won't be using a friend to build a site for me again. I am just sorry that we couldn't work things out but cunt and douchey refuse to talk to me. Sad.

CHEERS to all the good times we had you bastardsI will miss them!

testicils of hate!!!

Believe it or not folks but there are times when I really hate my testicles. I hardly ever hate my penis because it's not his fault I get horny. That blame belongs to the two guys in the hammock that keep egging him on. I went to the DJ Krush show last night(for those that don't know he is an awesome Japanese hip-hop dj) and I got really fed up with the two bastards. Here I am out on a night alone for the first time in months, trying to meet people and just enjoy the music. No one I knew was there so I allowed the music to take me a bit and I danced some. Those who know me have seen me dance little those who don't know me have seen me dance alot. But instead of me just simply enjoying the music and grooving for a couple of hours, I keep wondering if the girl dancing next to me keeps bumping into me on purpose or is she just caught up in her own blazing disco inferno? Also, are the two girls that moved in front of me during the break there because they wanted to step up closer to me or are they just doing the music thing too? What about that girl over there? She might be.... No Nothing Nada. I should have just enjoyed rthe music but instead my head keeps going back to girls. In the end I left without saying hello or breaking the ice at all because that is how pathetic I am. I agonize over this shit and then do nothing because I'm so fucking lame. I then went over to my favorite bar, The Ritz, to have a few less expensive drinks and unwind from the beats. So as I walk all the sugar plumbs are dancing in my head, saying things to me that might be considered promising. Maybe there will be a cute girl who approaches me tonight or I will see that some gal digs me and I can work up the courage to ask her. No Nothing Nada. I see girls who lock eyes with me and all I can do is smile and nod and pass them by. I'm so fucking pathetic. I end up sitting at a table alone until they yell last call. When I proceed to the door and walk home. I really wish that my wild out going personality carried over to other environments besides with my friends. I am alot of fun and great company but I can't say "HI". I just thought I'd take a moment to tell every one how disappointed in myself I am. I can't say 'hi'. How fucking hard is that to do? How fucking lame!

Why, my monkeys? Why?

I am getting organized after a rather traumatic visit with my dad. I am taking care of my warrant, time warner bill, and I bought a filing cabnet and have filed all my papers in the apartment. That filing cabnet thing is amazing. All the loose papers, drawings, notes, bills, school crap: all in one place. Let's hear it for Organization. Hopefully a new A.D.D. drug for me on the way. Any one know someone for me to take out for dinner/drinks/ and a movie at my place? Lookin' for some one new. Dating is constructive and healthy, right?

My pants!!! Dear God MY Pants!!!!

So I am feeling a bit like a loser right now. Some of my friends have dropped off the face of the earth and I don't know why, I dropped a class and now have to shell out 300 bucks for a distance learning course, I am starting to feel like the ladies don't want me anymore, I broke sky's heart(or whatever it is she has in there(a weather vane)), and I can't keep my house clean no matter how hard I try. I feel like I'm back sliding on the slip-n'-slide of life. I don't want this depression again but I need to pick myself up and go do some job interviews today. If I can secure a job then at least I'll feel worth something. You know what? That's exactly what it is. I feel worthless to everyone right now and I really just want to feel needed. I will probably shove a Barry Manalowe Record into my head as punishment for being so lame. Wow. I really suck and I can't get used to it.

ship shape like Titanica

Current mood: content
The first night of anime went over well and I have hooked everyone on to it now. Naruto is officially a hit! I am drinking too much every night and I just found out that my bitches are moving to Canida without even telling me about it. I am treding water at school just barely but I think I can juggle it. I am coughing up a lung every so often cuz I am sick right now. Some news of interest, Hope the OM of Amy's Ice Creams wants me back but my year away from Amy's isn't over yet. I would go back there in a heart beat. I am on a kick where I like to sing the chorus of "private dancer" to Max at work in the 'Tina' voice but I don't think I see anything too wrong with that. I put up new pictures which should excite exactly no one but me and my monkey. Until the next time people, "I'm dancing like a monkey! Monkey Dance!"

Heroin is on the menu

I am rather happy to announce that I will be starting up anime nite again either this monday or the next depending upon the participant's schedule. Macy is out and so too might be Alex but we shall see. This makes room for Travis and Candice who I completely neglected on my list due to pot-headery. Travis is one of the OGs and his girl dressed up like Faye Valentine for Halloween. That qualifies her and travis was no question. Those were the only two people I had on a waiting list though. It was a list so secret I think it's safe to say I forgot. If anyone else drops out I believe it would be fortuitous for us as a smaller group then the necessary ten is preferred. To all those who wished to be part I apologize but I have to keep a strict line drawn, so much so that anyone who gets a ride to my place can't have their ride stay, eek. This nite is a commitment to becoming a family like no other before. We stop when the first person leaves and if you don't show up for a night we won't wait till next week. This is all due to my fore-sight and will become apparent later. Boy I sound self-important but I have to make sure anime Monday doesn't get out of hand like it did last time. In short, it is a club not a social hour as most treated it before. I love you all but there can be only a chosen few due to apt. space and overt possibilities of distraction. I have 29 hours of this shit and it makes me hard just thinking about it.

Like a phoenix with hot sauce

So I think I'm going to start up anime nite again depending on two things. 1: If the anime series I just ordered in has good subtitles. 2: I have to keep the number of people at my house at 10. This is the difficult part as I don't want to exclude any friends but there are those who came to the nites before and never really paid that much attention to the anime. I have a working list but 2-3 of them are tentative in my head. I have to cut people out who aren't old school automatically, so I can't really invite new friends to the night. At the same time there are three people who have inspired me to start up the anime night again. Annuh, Lyn-C, and Max-tastic. These three, should they wish to join are the only new additions. I fanny bail out then I can add new folk. My list stands like this:Evan Macy Cameron Travis Max Lyns Annuh Sean Alex Skyx x x xI would invite Ivan but he has no car to get back and forth and the same might be true for sky. Alex has a new guy that she hangs with in San Marcos while in school and I don't know that she will want to make the drive on a Mon. nite. I will have to call these people and check. I do anticipate at least one-two drop outs out of the ten I should think. Oh well. I think I'll place it on Mondays and lay out the official rules for the nite before it starts. No one knew how anime night used to be so when all the new people joined it became really unorganized. I wish my place was big enough for more than 10 and that if I did have more than 10 they would all shut up and pay attention but hey What can I do. This probably won't come to pass for at least a week so this could not end up happening.

it's like heroin but better!

Man oh man... in less than two weeks I have watched 50 episodes of this anime series. I can't stop and the only reason I have right now is because I don't get the next 50 till this weekend. Hurry Ricky Hurry!!! If you want to know the name..... "Naruto". Like Dragon Ball Z but about 3x as fast and far more intelligent. It draws you in slowly and then by episode 7 or 8 you are interested. Ahhhhh! When it has you there you are a goner. Like a drug that feels pretty good and every time you go back it is better. You could quit, I mean it's a long series, do you really want to get into it? Well a few more episodes to see if it gets better like it already has been. Ooo that was cool. Woah! Awesome! Oh my Fucking God Did that Just Happen! these are the levels leading up to episode 17 or 18. After that you are on your way to selling your personal articles and bed simply for another episode. I am a Naruto disciple. Heed my words...."This anime is big"!

3-2-1 abstract

Man I had 3 1/2 hours o sleep last night did a 3000 word project, another 2 page paper got up went to class, posted my project on line, going to another class, going to work @ 5-11:30, then home to write another 2 page paper on a book that I'm trying to finish after this blog, then get up go to class at nine Friday turn in paper, finish classes @ eleven, go home and nap till three when I have to go to work and then come home to a coma waiting to happen. Send me some well wishes people cause I work again sunday and then I have a test monday. Damn this sucks. Let me feel some good karma comin' my way and it'll come back to ya I swear.Oh yeah, and if anyone can offer a good rubbing for my shoulders then I would probably melt into puddin' and gurrrgle a bit. Thanks.

ahhhh women still suck!

So I have had a few friends say, "Don't worrry. They're not all that way." or ,"Hey, We're not all like that!" Guess what? I know, but I don't meet those girls...I meet the others. The ones who know you have been betrayed in the past and say what a nice guy you are and you should learn to trust people again. They open up to you and you feel like you could trust people again. And then they lie to you and you realize that it just doesn't stop. Women don't stop being deceptive with you they only cycle in a new deceiver. Man, if one more female tells me I should just let go of the past and start trusting again then I'm gonna e'splode! It is like dangling a treat in front of a dog and smacking his nose right after he bites it. If you do that over and over again...say three four times...the dog won't go for it. Pavlovian response, am I right? I can't take another innocent face lying to me or another accusation of infidelity. I get these too fucking often for not doing either one. I might just start lying and fucking around so as to even the playing field or at least earn the treatment I keep getting heaped on to me. If I didn't have this horrible cycle of complete adoration of women then I would stop the self afflicted abuse. I love the treat that they dangle in front of me, no matter how hard they smack my nose. God, I'm so pathetic. Now I have to get this one girl out of my dreams before it drives me mad, but it already has.

Well my pancreas is still intact

I am very glad to see that my weekend with my parents went extremely well and I am not in a downward spiral of pain and misery that shall last me for merely an eternity. As a matter of fact My outlook on things is pretty good aside from the fact that I'm gonna have to work my ass off to finish my last semester at UT. I hope this growth on my right arm stops trying to convince me that we are siamese twins and just let me stick a wart pad on him. He keeps smoking my weed when I'm asleep and that's a big no no. My fridge is stocked and that is good except for the fact that it is all so full that I want to cry and gorge myself on taquitos now that I have the keys to the food kingdom. I really think I am going to be more proactive in seeking out dating people or should I say females? I don't know. Either way, The new BJork album "Medulla" is amazing in a way I haven't experienced in a while. Check it.
Late,
C-Note

this one sticks

So I am settling into the swing of school hopefully as soon as I get all my books. My car was broken and is now partially fixed $400 down $1100 to go before my car is good again. Damn! Anyway, pops and kelly are coming into town this weekend and that can be good but I have to tip toe around alot of stuff to avoid a break down between dad and I. I feel an epiphany coming on soon and I hope it's a good one. I am at a point where I need to finish getting my shit together physically and emotionally and I have some help with that now. I realized that even though I thought I was better and over the whole Armageddon of my life that happened 2 years ago, I have been hiding from myself behind the beer and the weed. I still am not comfortable with myself nor do I like myself all that much, still. I need to feel worthy of myself before I commit to anyone else. So my old slogan is coming back into play. "I'm picking up where I never should have left off." I am kinda excited about how all this is gonna turn out. Right now I just need to organize and not self-medicate so much. Michelle, if you read these at all...thanks for ruining my life 2 years ago because...,"It's only after you've lost everything that you're free to do anything." Tyler’s words coming out of my mouth...and I used to be such a nice guy.

It's blog. it's blog, it's big, it's heavy, I've got wood.

So I really don't know if I passed my ASL 2 class and that could really fuck things up for me. I need a C to go forward with my ASL and graduate on time. Man, I really need to dicking around with school and finish up strong but I'll be damned if it doesn't already feel like it's over. I haven't been sleeping as much as I should and I'll blame that on me and one other person but this has increased my napping time and decreased my productive time. Oh well, I dressed up all sexy in my suit to drop off resumes and applications at the Capitol yesterday. I really feel nervous around business people. They seem so fake or grown up high school kid for me. They all have bland senses of humor too for all I can see. I make generalizations because I can. If you can't tell, I have been sawing off my left arm while writing this and I hope that you find the quality of my writing improved with the loss of an appendage. If you want to watch kung fu then you should come by my place any time after mid-night. That's when I watch it now-a-days. I find myself always to the left of where I thought I was. Strange, that.Oh yeah, and Sister Mary Jane just keeps gettin' cooler and cooler. I think she's keen

Take it out of the box 1st!

So I bought one of those tongue Joy things and I can't wait to try it out but I'm on a circling pattern for the standard days out of the month. I really am drinking way too much lately as well as smoking too. Yay me! I have become the lush I've always dreamed of. I'm well sexed right now and feeling rather chipper about life's prospects. Now if only I could get this Ferret out of my right eye socket, as he is causing a disturbance in the force. I think I may need a tazer for this.

I never wrote this, trust me.

So for all of you wondering I'm back and better than ever. My batteries just got charged last night and I'm ready to take on the world. I don't know what the last 24 hours has meant to me yet but I'll tell you one thing, I love da punani. Mez well rested hafta a nice night wit me julie. If anything I can hope that this provides the motivation I've been waiting for to get my shit together. Strange that I need someone else around to make me realize I need to do that but whatevuh. ROllerderby was awesome and my brownies kicked ass! Holy Rollers are the best team out there. Bar none. I will soon be fighting my former friend Ivan to the death for Mary Jane's honor (as well as other things). I'm shaken and confused and happy. Awesome like a hot dog!